i want to kill my self

I know i dont know you and dont know what your going through but all i will say that this is your only life. 2years ago i battled with suicidal thoughts and i still do to a certain extent. i only attempted it once and luckily i failed. I know it seems incessant but it is not. the only way to deal is to talk with somebody who you can confide in. i put off talking about my troubles for too ling and thought the idea of doing so was seriously stupid. once i did though and i was able to discuss things without fear of judgement things got a whole lot better. nobody knowa how you feel and they will never fully understand but even attempting to talk helps ive lost 2people i knew to suicide and know 2more battling depression.
dont lose sight of the fact that there are things worth living for no matter what the circumstance. when my a family friends killed himself the sadness was immeasurable. all the things he had planned to do with his life can now never come to be. his parents even battled depression and suicide as a result of his death.
the world wants you to be in it. i know im waffling on and that this could all be the same people say about these matters all the time but you shouldnt cut yourself.
i stumbled across this while down one day and it made me cheer up and gave me some perspective. im not a religious person either so dont ignore the message if you arent.
i hope things for you start to improve

my best friend was a lesbian. Her mother didnt accept her. She was sent to a foster home.. She found the med cabinet. And now she is gone. She left me behind. And now i have issues with suicidal thoughts and cutting. Whatever is making you cut will pass. If you end up successful in you attempts to off yourself you will leave others behind blaming themselves. And wanting to kill themselves. Believe me. Suicide isnt the way... It hurts everybody.. Even if you dont think anybody cares.

Do you have deep scars? when this stage of your life passes I hope they don't haunt you the way mine has haunted me. they don't always fade away we think they should I have about 10 years to go before they fade enough to where every single person I meet stops asking me what happened.

When I was in my early teens I was dealing with some serious issues at home and was raped by a senior from my highschool. I felt self hatred after that, I didn't cut, but I burned and pierced myself. My best friend thought she was Bi at first but told me she was a lesbian the last time I saw her, unfortunately she isolated herself and we lost contact. I still wonder what she's doing or if she's even alive, so I say a prayer for her and hope for the best for her, even though she may never know.

My message to you bichick14, is be true to yourself and be proud of who you are. Life is beautiful even though sometimes bad things happen (even to the innocent) and it is up to us good guys not to snuff out our own existence based on other people or their beliefs. We all entitled to be who we are, be proud of yourself, you should be.

All the best.

agree with tombonk7...there wz a time in my life too....i had my issues ...actually i wana kill myself 4om the last 2 yers thought abt it many times ..bt then i overcom ma probs , life is one time oppertunity....and you ll get through ur probs soon , a year or 2 from nw u ll look back and laugh n say wt the hell i wz thinkin!!!!try to find smting that make u busy...like movis,tv shows, or nything else.

hey love.

first thing's first. you're not alone. secondly, we can all agree to hate homophobic people. they're generally a bunch of idiots who have no idea how insensitive they're being.

i have a question for you. is there a GSA at your school? try joining support groups. i promise you that there are many other people at your school who are feeling just as bullied because of their sexual orientation as well. there are normally LGBTQ groups and support systems in most cities. try to reach out to them or give them a call. i promise they will reach back.

i'm also bisexual. and i can say truthfully that my friends in high school saved my life. they were my support system, my strength, my courage, everything.

if it means anything to you, when i was in middle school and during the beginning of high school, i had only friends online. i cut regularly too. it was the adrenaline rush i got right after i cut, but then came the thoughts of extreme loneliness.

my advice is for you to seek out other people who are like you, other people who also feel different or bullied. seek out people who will affirm your sense of pride and self-worth. i have never met you before, but you are a beautiful person. you are creative, intelligent, and strong. And No One can take that away from you.

if you continually feel depressed and suicidal, please reach out to a support group, LGBTQ center, a counselor, or a hotline. i promise you that you are not alone, and that you're stronger and braver than you think

Don't do it.. I know that I can't make you stop wanting to kill yourself. But I want you to know that your not alone. I think about suicide a lot.. but I don't think I could commit it right now. If you left, I am sure your family would feel to blame, and they would miss you. Life is hard. I am really confused... about everything! I'm not a lesbian or anything.. well I don't think I am.. I don't know what I am.. Ughh so confused, but anyways, I am not against being bi or anything like that. Just stay strong about it and don't let anything other people say get you down! <3

i know how you feel
i have scars EVERYWHERE. my parents dont even notice them, thank god for that, but every time im in gym, everybody asks me what happened. i hate it . i have to make up stupid stories. dont do it. i was deeply disturbed only 2 years ago, i wanted nothing more than to die. but you will get over it. i know it. it takes time, but you will.

i have scars every where to. my family didnt know for two years then i just started leaving i just got sent half way across canada because they didnt want me anymore..

Trust me, I just started cutting myself because my mom died 4 years ago and i live with my aunt and uncle with two daughters who hate me. I don't see me real brother or sisters anymore, even though they are trying to gain custody of me...i got my phone taken away 3 years ago, i got my computer taken away a while ago(i know im on it right now but thats because my family thinks i use it just for homework!) and i have no connection to life. i talked to my vice principal for help and it didn't work. she even called my aunt to tell her i needed counseling but my aunt never does a thing about it! and im only 14...

Trust me, I just started cutting myself because my mom died 4 years ago and i live with my aunt and uncle with two daughters who hate me. I don't see me real brother or sisters anymore, even though they are trying to gain custody of me...i got my phone taken away 3 years ago, i got my computer taken away a while ago(i know im on it right now but thats because my family thinks i use it just for homework!) and i have no connection to life. i talked to my vice principal for help and it didn't work. she even called my aunt to tell her i needed counseling but my aunt never does a thing about it! and im only 14...

Hello staystrong5 please please try your very best to staystrong, I know when you have lost the closest person to you you become lost lonely and sad but please remember soon very soon life will change for you but you must take one day at a time. please dont hurt yourself anymore, someone does care even if you think no one does..