I think I saw the rapid test come back positive so...

So I got an HIV rapid test at the Health Department at 6weeks it was NEG and then at 12 weeks the nurse said it was NEG but I think she was lieing because she thinks I would hurt myself and I think I saw the rapid test come back positive so I went and got home acess test at 12 weeks and it was NEG but I think it was only 1 or 2 generation so maybe it didnt show, My aniexty then got really bad so I went to the Hospital and got an HIV test dont at 5 months and I had to pick results up at medical records and it was Nonreact but I have a feeling the health department changed it because they are waiting to tell me anyways if the healthdepartment is doing this to me I could pass the virus on because they are lieing what do I do? I happy I tested but everything now is a mess I had to unplug all my phones in fear of them calling, I hate when my dog barks I think they are at the door and I cant check mail:(