i think im depresses i had a fight with all my friends and i feel as though everyone hate me... i walk around school on my own I HATE IT!!! i feel i have no one to turn too i want to start councaly but i can't go without an adult, i also cut myself i have few time know and it feels good, i have lloked up ways to commit sucide and have tried popping pills and papper bags over my head, im so down it hurts i don't know what to do and my friends want me to go to them and say sorry, im not in the right state of mind to even talk to them, i just feel so alone. please help me please!!!
I understand that this will be difficult, but you really need to alert someone in the medical profession. A doctor, a hospital, anyone. Counseling would be a good idea, although you should look at all forms of therapy. People can help you, but you need to let them help you. You say you can't go without an adult. I assume that means you haven't told a parent. I know it seems hard, but you can't really do anything until you get past that step. You need to tell your parents and get immediate help, especially if you are considering or have attempted suicide and self harm. It may seem hard, but surely not as hard as carrying on as you have been.
Yes, in my opinion you don't need to tell your parents, but you need to tell an adult. We have been walking on this earth a little longer and some of us know a bit, quite a bit about what you might be going through. Your mission now is to find an adult who you trust or someone who you don't mind telling this about, with 6 billion people on this earth you shouldn't have a problem.
As for you being depressed, yeah you might be, we all get depressed sometimes, but I will tell you something. Yourself, your body, your mind... you are not built to be in that state. Our natural state is HAPPY-NESS!
Try smiling for 10 minutes, even if you fake it you will feel much better, and won't be able to fake it much longer. Your will start to feel it!
Your emotions are wise, they are telling you something, listen to what they are saying and you will find what you need to do, but an adult will definately help you see all this. Go for it and let us know.
If you want you can send me a personal message. Have a nice day