I'm not sure but after tonight I think I may be in an abusive relationship. I have been suffering for a few years now with Lupus SLE and as a result of taking predisone I have gained about a hundred pounds. So you can imagin what I look like. Now my current boyfriend of three years has begun to become meaner and meaner to me.
Tonight's fight was not unlike others we've had over the years that I have to admit have been getting more frequent. 2 months ago he and I decided to move intogether so at the end of the month we will be sharing an apartment. At first I was excited adn happy but now i'm scared and depressed about it.
About a week ago he called me up and we started out talking normally but then something was said, can't remember what but it wasn't anything bad at all and it just seemed to trigger his already bad mood. He beugn to spout out mean things to me saying taht I wasn't attractive to him sexually because of my weight.
That I don't dress sexy enough for him, that I can't go and visit his mother anymore (we are close) and that I'm horrible in bed so he can't bare to have sex with me.
I cried and cried and he was actually mad that I was crying he said that I always cry and I need to be more mature. I can't help it when he says things to me like that it hurts, and I always cry when i'm upset nad frusterated.
Tonight was I think that last straw for me. I called him up to say hello and I could tell he wasn't in a great mood and he out of the blue said I need to make sure that when we move into out place that I keep emotional boundries with him so that I don't tread on his emotional boundries. I have never heard of that so I asked what are the emotional boundries, what doesn't or does he want me to do? He got uspet that i didn't understand and seemed very frusterated that I didn't know what that ment.
He said I was mary poppinsy and to simple and that I need to get a dictionary and look it up. I cried and he got upset. Then the critizing started. He started telling me I was overweight, that I am horrible in bed, that we can't communicate and he has no problems with other people just me.
He told me that he cringes when I call and he's not happy with me I frusterate him with what I do (and honestly I have no idea what I do I don't do anything I'm aware of) and all his getting upset is my fault and he's just expressing himself.
I can't sleep and I feel sick and scared inside. In less then 2 weeks we are going to be sharing an apartment adn I'm afraid that the mental abuse might escalate into physical and I don't wnat to go throuhg with this move but I don't knwo how to get out.
Any advice is appreciated.
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