I see depression as a virus inside you...

I came on this site reading a article about depression! I can tell you that it is not a joke. I suffer from depression and it never leaves you. I sometimes misjudge depression with jealousy, heart break and anger but it all leads to depression.

I am writing this post not to get attention, I want help. Im looking at the curser flickering and i dont know where to start.


I feel so lonely, I dont have friends or a Girlfriend/Boyfriend (Something I cant seem to figure out - Makes my depression worse). I see depression as a virus inside you that constantly makes your heart and tummy ache. This black hole inside that is like a vacuum and just keeps sucking you in with no stop.

I try to hide it and push it away but it pops in everyday. Im so tired, you know when you are emotionally and physically tired, I am over and beyond. Ive tried killing myself but i dont have the guts to do it im scared that i will go to hell.

I am a christian and I do believe in Jesus and God and I turn to Him with everything but the dperession is to much.

I am so lonely...

I know there are alot of people with the same problem and can prob relate to my post and I do not wish this uppon anyone as it is the silent killer.

Most people who reads this will be offended but this is the reality of depression. Ive been to councelors and doctors, Ive been on medication. I am sick of being told it is going to be ok!!! Do something about it, you know! I know whats wrong with me dont tell it to me find a solution.

I am 22 years old...and I am so lonely...

I would like to end this post by asking what is the solution to depression???