I'm the middle child in my family, and I always feel like the odd one out. My mother always yells at me and she doesn't understand me and my dad just agrees with her. When I was a kid my mom used to hit me and my sister and brother sometimes when she got really angry. She didn't have a right to be angry because we were just kids, like age 5 and stuff and she would just yell all the time. I'm also not really close with anyone in my family. My sister is going away to college next year but we've never been close so I hadn't minded but now she says she wants to be but my little brother. closer to me but I don't want to because I feel like she had all 15 years of my life to get closer to me and why did she have to choose now, when she's going to leave me? My parents always tell me I'm too mean and that I'm unloveable and that it's hard for them to be near me, and that they wish I was nicer. But it's harder for me when I'm always told I'm unloveable and "could I be nicer please?" I hate my family and I only have 3 more years until I leave for college and then I won't ever come back and visit them but I feel bad about leaving my brother, because I am closest to him and I really do love him, as opposed to everyone else in my family who I don't really care about.
I understand how you feel. I felt the same once in my life. I think you have a middle-child syndrome. It happens a lot in families. I have a sister and is a middle child and always a center of oddities. But we don't hate her
Don't hate your family. They love you for sure. Take time to prove to them that you are not what they think you are. That you can be someone. But don't rebel against them. You will not be successful in your life if you have hate in your heart. They're still your family and you still belong to them.
I think things like that really comes to most of the people. I started to hate my mom and family since I was 10 and it continued to grow, hate after hate 'till I reached my 20 yrs. But i realized that hating them doesn;t solve everything. That blood is still thicker than anything else. So i let their insulting words pass my ears and never minded. I tried to understand them and acted maturely. Silently I achieved my goals in life sucess after success. I passed my board exam when they thought I couldn't make it. I graduated college without depending on them. Now I earned the respect from my family because I have proved them wrong. I used to rebel but it didn't help. I realized that a problem cannot be solved by another problem. So I took things constructively instead of destructively. Now I am a successful career woman. I earned their respect and they look on me as an example to my other siblings.