Hey. well lets start out in the begening of my life iam s twin when i was little my mother died when i was 5 years of age after her death 2 years later my father moves out of my home to live with his girlfriend leaving me and my twin to live with my grandma and grandpa everything was going good then 5 years later my grandma died with a heartack i was really upset about that. so my aunt moved in and helpd take care of me and my pap and my brother she couldnt handle us both so my brother moved in with my other aunt =[ sad so i was upset most of my life cuz now my father isnt in my life i seen him about once a month and my brother lived only 1 mile away but still i missed him alot now my grandpa has died 5 months ago am so upset i loved him very much! so i lived with him in his house now 1 month after he died my aunt sold the house leaving me to be on my own seens like i been abanded so now i live in a appartnemt with my bf his nice and loving i just hate not being in the house where my grandpa lived! it hurts and seems like no one loved me lifes just been hard for me i never think of hurting my self lifes just hard for me am only 19 i was still in high school when i had to go out on my own thanks so much for listing to me thanks