i may die

My mind is racing my ears burning my head exploding
There is so much noise like there’s an entire city in my head reeking havoc
Yelling, scream, abusing
I want a pause button
Just stop the noise stop the voice
I feel I’m loosing control and there gaining it
I feel like an intruder in my own body, my own mind.
I’m screaming for help
But no one can hear me
I’m scared of myself my other side
I don’t know where these bruises came from
Were these cut appeared from?
I don’t know who i am
I don’t know anything
I’m trapped
Trapped with myself
With no escape
But suicide