Hello, I'm 14 and I think I may be bipolar. I have times where I'm depressed for months and months at a time (this has been going on for a few years now) and I feel hopeless and worthless, and more than anything, alone. I have suicidal thoughts during these times and sometimes I self-harm. And sometimes I have times where I am super hyper (these times are not even close to lasting as long as when I feel depressed) and so happy. I look in the mirror and think, I'm so beautiful and I don't care what others think I love myself. I get this feeling in my chest that just makes me squeal and I laugh all the time. I'm much more active and I have all these goals I try and complete. I also lash out at the slightest annoyance and often get in fights with my mom and brother. Just a few days ago I told my best friend that she was a horrible friend (she didn't invite me somewhere.. I know, I'm stupid... I just felt so betrayed and angry) and I really regret that now.. I know my dad is depressed, and I think he and his father (who killed himself) may both be bipolar (I don't know though, because he's really paranoid and never goes to the doctor about his mental problems)
I'm sorry this is so long, I just have no one to talk to about this and I feel hopeless and alone. Is this just a phase? Who do I talk to? I don't want to tell my mom until I'm more sure that I might have it, because I don't want to end up not having it and then feel all stupid.. Plus, I just don't want to worry her.
Thank you for reading this, and your advice is greatly appreciated!
Do you know what makes you sad? Do you talk to anyone about your problems? & Its good that you think your very beautiful. Not many girls think that of themselves. Try listening to music, that helps me a lot. Try to listen to songs that you can relate to. Z-RO, Eminem, & Tupac have music that I find I can relate to.
Open yourself on having a lot of friends. Sometimes all we need to have are friends, but only have those friends that has a positive point of view in life and those friends whom you can confide all your burdens in life. And it's better if you'll consult a doctor about that problem of yours.
Hey Andiee, Sounds like your'e going through a hard time. Imn my opinion it is best to seek out a goood psychiatrist & therapist (who you get a long well with both). They can provide you with the proper techniques and medications that can help even out your moods and your life. Also, I've been there and was diagnosed with BP at 16 but had my first hopsitilization at 12. Feel free to Inbox me if you just need to talk or get something off your chest. I am no doc but I have some experience and can listen as well as anybody.
I am schizo-affective and got my first unpredicted psychotic state at 27. At 14 I was very, how to say, hyper or I could get very angry with my brothers and parents and outside at school I was always very shy and never angry. Then at the age of 21 At school I started to hide away in bathrooms and stuff and also I started to meditate in my own room for 10 minutes each day. And it really helped to calm down the thoughts and see them as false most of the time. As if you were listening to the thought speak instead of you. SO I calmed down, learned to love myself but nevertheless I became psychotic at the age of 27.
So I hear some things in myself when I read your website. THe best thing is to talk about it with your parents or go to speak abotu it with someone who can trust. It might not be bipolar but maybe just a phase. Depressions suck bigtime, but they all revolve to thoughts which make you sad. So catch yourself thinking negeatviely next time and see why they come up and be your own best psycologist. If not, talk about with a psycologist first or someone else.
Hi Andiee, I think the first step and most important step is to talk to your mom and hopefully set up an appointment with a psychologist. I wouldn't worry about whether you're bipolar or not. That's for doctors to decide. Tell him/her what your feeling and why if there is a reason. I was 12 when I began battling my first of many depressions. If you're a believer, trust in God. Either way you'll make it through, and are on the right track to getting the help you want! God bless
I say talk to people who you can trust and won't judge you and do research to figure out where you are if you are in fact bipolar. I'm 99.9% positive I am but I have never gone to the doctor, not that I condone not seeking professional help but I had people to help me and I did research and learned basic things that can help. For Bipolar II Disorder, which you may have because you sound like me, I need to sleep normally and make sure I eat because not eating triggers an episode and I've also learned my triggers through the years so I know when to calm down. I'm happy I learned all of this because I'm great. I started at 16. I knew something wasn't right. I wrote a lot of dark things and cut and took pills and was always trying to kill myself. I went to my mom and she thought I had went crazy which led me further into the depression you speak of. I'd be depressed for months and then I'm happy for a few days and then down. Small things triggered me and any slight betrayal sent me over the edge even if it was nothing. What made me finally realize I had this mental illness is I watched a documentary on a 15 year old boy who had a severe case of Bipolar II Disorder and I was like omg that's me like a mirrored image. Now I'm 22 and married and happy because of the info I learned. My best friend helped me the most. Sometimes talking to people for me is a bad thing because I still have bad days here and there and people who don't have it or never been around it or aren't level headed make it worse. My husband helps me a lot and understood right off the bat. Find your someone and do research and if none of that is helping and you're still struggling, most definitely seek professional help. The only reason I never went is because I had a pill problem for starters and I know the meds that get used to treat this and I didn't wanna do that. I did my research and saw these natural techniques and said hey I'll try this and if it works great and if not then I'll seek professional help. Figure out what works for you. Hope this helped you.
Having Bipolar is nothing to be ashamed of, and there are lots of things you can do to help it. Don't blame yourself and try not to fault parents if they do not understand.
I have schizo-affective, which is somewhat similar to Bipolar except that I would get different symptoms and it is not only based on mania for me. I take a mood stabilizer: Abilify and I'm thinking about getting off Vyvanse which is for Adhd.
Abilify is approved for people as young as your age from what I am reading. This is how Abilify works: it blocks certain areas that cause mania in the brain, or certain transmitters but not completely so you wouldn't be super sedated. It also seems to have anti-depressant qualities, by preventing mania it can also up in certain areas to help you feel normal in mood. It's not perfect alone, but I've taken it by itself for many years starting at age fifteen or sixteen.
I would suggest seeing a doctor and asking about mood stabilizers or medications to treat the bipolar mania effectively, and to prevent the depression that comes along with Bipolar lows.
From what I've been told, the earlier you catch and treat Bipolar symptoms the greater the recovery or remission rate. Bipolar typically peaks for women at thirty and can start acting as early as teen to early adult years. So by treating your symptoms early on it may help it even out, though I am not 100 percent certain that medication effectively prevents it from getting worse by itself, it certainly can limit the damage from Bipolar.
Bipolar is somewhat degenerative in a sense, that is, if you don't know how to cope with the symptoms they can cause bad habits to form and social problems in the long run. Well, my therapist says that by treating my Schizo-Affective I have stabilized it pretty much over-all. Where-as, If I had waited for say until now...it might be harder to treat if It had gotten worse.
There is always the question of it evening-out as you get older, but Bipolar runs in my family. My mother who was always ant-meds had her Bipolar peak at around thirty, which caused (warning possible trigger) suicide attempts when she was raising us kids due to her mania worsening causing delusions. She is unstable now, without meds and would be harder to get better. It's really hard for me to see her struggles. But I am there for her as her daughter, as best as I can be.