I'm fifteen years old, and I'm very worried I might be Autistic. In social situations I'm usually very... awkward, I can rarely bring myself to talk even if I want to, even if I'm with very close friends (I can talk fine one on one, but when it's me and two or more people I'm extremely and randomly nervous). I also can't keep eye contact for very long- it sounds weird, but if I have to look into someones eyes for more than a few seconds I suddenly flinch away (this happens with everyone but one person, who is the closest non-family member to me).

I also have a habit of organizing my friends possessions (say, video game cases, or books and D.V.D's) into some form of order, and on my computer, I have to organize everything into specific folders, whether it be music or pictures or general documents.

I spoke to my doctor about it, but he just said "Well you could be, but you've 'missed the boat' with this kind of thing- What good would knowing you're autistic be now?" and he is reluctant to get me tested for it and such.


Oh, and, also, sometimes, if something has an odd shape I love to touch it. I would sit there for half a minute just pushing my thumb around an odd shape (say a dent in something, or... like the kind of shape a spoon is).

Perhaps my doctor is right, and knowing that I'm autistic now (at fifteen) won't help me at all, but still, I'd rather know than not know.

Can anyone give me any insight? I do have one Autistic friend, and one friend with Aspergus syndrome, however, I'm afraid to ask my Autistic friend as sometimes when I bring up a possible condition I may have she says I'm just being offensive to people who have it... and I cannot ask my Aspergus friend as he is at University right now, and I am also to nervous to ask.