I hurt my boyfriend. A lot. We used to go out about a year ago (kind of), since it was online...and I did things I shouldn't have done. Moreover, when he broke up with me due to things unrelated, I was a hateful, evil person behind his back to someone else who was manipulating us both.
The thing that's causing the problem is that when we were going to "clean the air" this time around, I lied about it. Part of it was the fact that I didn't remember and part of it was that I was too ashamed to tell him. I didn't want to hurt him anymore. But it all came out anyway, and now I don't know what to do. I've apologized numerous times. I've explained what happened. I told him who I want to be, and that I'm not the kind of person who would hurt people like that anymore. I never thought I was in the first place.
But I don't know what else to do to fix this. I LOVE him. I can't imagine not being with him. I need to fix this. But I'm not sure what else to do. Any ideas?