(((helzwar007)))
I so feel your pain my dear and I understand where you're coming from because I'm in the same boat with you. I wish I could offer you somekind of solution to your problem but all I can give you is a virtual (((hug))) and let you know that you're not alone.
Currently, I'm jobless and almost broke and alone as well. I can't get unemployment because my former employer saw to that and because of my OCD I've spent most of the money I saved up for a rainy day. Right now it pouring.
Are you seeing a therapist? If not I highly recommend it. I know you said you're broke and no insurance(same as me)but some agencies have sliding scale fees and you'd be paying less then the full priced session. If you can't afford the sliding scale fee, ask if they have an intern you could speak to. Generally, interns have the schooling but need the hands on training and will work jointly with a fully trained therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist to assist you with your problems. That's what I'm doing. The intern I see only cost me $5 for a full hour session and I've been to the fully trained/high priced therapist and frankly I can't tell the difference between her and them.
If you don't want to go that route try local churches. Some churches have counselors too but may charge and others may just have a pastor willing to listen to you without charge. Look for support groups for your particular issues in the area to help you. You might even make a friend there to phone for support out of session. But I would recommend talking to your GP about medications to get your depression under control. The main thing is don't give up. Keeping trying. Exhaust every options to get help.
I know what it feels like to have your depression to start getting worse on you. Mine has been getting steadily worst over the last few months too and now has gotten so bad that I don't want to look for work, leave the house or try to keep my food stamps so I don't go hungry. When you don't even care about food anymore when you've always been an over-eater(another of my addictions)then you know you've hit near bottom.
I'll pray for you and hope that everything starts getting better. I know it ain't much but it's all I can offer. Just keep us posted on how things are going. Keep talking and don't give up.
