since me and my girlfriend started going out every couple of months i thinking about cheating on her with with her best friend and i know i could never cheat but she thinks that thinking about it is just as bad as cheating and she left me and i really really want to change so maybe i can get her back and i hate myself so much for having those thoughts. i've always hated myself because everyone has always hated me except for her and shes always been there and i dont know how to act to being loved by some one. i really miss her but i've made my own noose with this. im willing to listen to all advice anyone can give because i miss her so much i just wish i hadn't been so stupid and thought that way.
i can never orgasm when we have sex no matter what kind, im terrible at sex, i lost my virginity to her and i've never loved anyone as much as her shes the only one whos ever been there for me when i was upset about something and now i've lost her im so stupid i want to do everything i can to make it up to her and get her back but im not worth her time.
your thoughts dont have a voice. did you think about having sex with your girl's bestfriend and then tell her about it, then she left you.
knowing that she probably feels bad that she can't get you to orgasm...you would throw that in her face.
and now your crying about how you miss her. you would treat her like crap knowing no one else likes you.....is it because you have a bad personality.
you said you want to change...change what...saying stupid stuff to hurt your girl.
everyone has negative thoughts.....but you dont act on them or speak about them.