your thoughts dont have a voice. did you think about having sex with your girl's bestfriend and then tell her about it, then she left you.
knowing that she probably feels bad that she can't get you to orgasm...you would throw that in her face.
and now your crying about how you miss her. you would treat her like crap knowing no one else likes you.....is it because you have a bad personality.
you said you want to change...change what...saying stupid stuff to hurt your girl.
everyone has negative thoughts.....but you dont act on them or speak about them.