Hi, my name is Paula. I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder, because I've never told anyone. But 2 years ago I went to the doctor and she asked me if I was eating well. I felt so nervous and I said "yes, I eat everything....". But actually for 3 years I had been eating in a no ordinary way. I could eat a big packet of cookies ( 900 calories) by myself in just 5 or 10 minutes. I lied because I was ashamed... I put on my head that it wasn't something to let the others know. But I wished I could tell to someone the hell I was living in.
I can't stop thinking about eating and calories...even when I try to concentrate for my homework and exams I can't help it... This year some of my partners noticed that something was wrong and asked me about what it was. I told them, not directly.... I just mentioned it. After that I felt ashamed for letting them know. They didn't understand it. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I don't binge as I was 5 years ago. Instead I'm restricting my calories but, I still feel fat and think of food all the time. I just wanted to know what can I do to stop because I really want to go to college and do the best. I'm 5 feet 1inches and weigh 133 pounds.
(I'm from Spain so sorry if my english is bad.)