i just want someone to talk to who cant judge me

Hi
I'm sorry to hear what you are going through but I am glad you are reaching out as you are not alone even though it may seem like it to you now. I don't think that it is fair for parents to put their children in the middle of their struggles but unfortunately it happens all the time. When I was a sophomore in college my parents split and it was so hard for me because it was a time in my life where I needed some stability and something or someone I could always fall back on. Unfortunately my parents weren't there for me either. It sounds like you are at a University and I am wondering if you have health benefits through your university. That is where I turned for help. I was able to see a counselor who helped me through and set me up with a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with bipolar disorder. I would assume that it is normal to feel up and down under your current circumstances but I would like to recommend you seek a counselor who is objective and can see the situation without the emotional perplexity you find yourself in. Of course that is just my suggestion based on what you wrote and I hope that you seek out someone you can talk to even if it isn't a counselor but an objective party.