I just sit on the couch sipping water and waiting.

I know this is the most selfish thing I can think of, but I just miss her so much. I know things will turn out alright with time. But it hurts so bad. I have terrible thoughts that she may be hurt or held against her will. Similar to a separation anxiety I think. She says its just a break, but I feel like it is only leading to the end of our relationship. My girlfriend and I had just talked about marriage only a few weeks ago. We have been together nearly 4 years. I told her we should wait for a javascript:%20save_changes(311169);year or two more, but engagement was a priority. I have also been jobless a while and living on trust-fund. I want to work, but I don't seem to get hired anywhere, ever. I know I am a loser in the eyes of my friends. They have told me so. But I know I can get a job. She, too, has been jobless for a few months, causing us to spend every day together. I can only hope that she is thinking about me the same way I am of her. I have seen her a few times since we decided to "take a break", but still, I think only of her when she is away. Without her here I can barely eat, I have severe stomach pain, I feel sick. What can I do? I don't find anything interesting. I used to love movies, bike riding, hiking. Now I just sit on the couch sipping water and waiting.