Hello there. My name is Brittany, and I am 16 years of age. A lot of 'bad' things have happened in my life (Rape, Deaths, Abuse) But right now things seem to be sailing smoothly, and have been since I was around 15 and a half.
But there are just some days where I just break down. I feel useless and hate myself so much. I feel like I need to be told it's 'okay' but I don't really have a person to do that. And when I get into these moods...I feel 'alone'. I don't want any ones help, in fact. When people are on AIM, or Myspace...I often send them nasty messages to push them away. But, the next day I'll be fine. ...Why is this happening to me? D:
You've been through a lot, so it's understandable why you would be angry at times.
I went through a lot of abuse myself, and sometimes I do feel angry and it influences what I say to others. It is okay.
I would really recommend seeing a therapist. It does help with the anger. No reason to hate yourself. You didn't do anything wrong. You had wrong things done to you. It's natural to have anger about it, and for it to come out in other situations.