i hate my ex for what he did to me in our relationship. i get flash backs and i want to get over how i feel inside, so angry.

we were together when i was 25 to 30 & he was 5 years younger than me. he was a moma's boy so he cried to her, he put his ex girlfriend whom he played daddy with her kids& his mom would ripped my eyes out if i said anything b/c the kids called her grandmom, bi-polar sister, immature friends, family members in our business & arguments. he was mentally abusive, and a little physically abusive-i would hit back. he was young immature and confused, he was in love with his ex(the one he played dad with her kids) the first 2 years of our relationship, and she even manage to get into our arguments.they would talk alot he took care of her kids b/c he raised them 2 years before me. he was in love with her, talking to her, bringing her kids over my house so i can watch them while he's playing football. i felt like i was in battle with everyone, and being nyeve wanting it to work.

i lived in a duplex, he moved in, i bought him a car, refused to teach me how to drive, criticized my appearance from head to toe knowing i had low self esteem and a depression problem, threw women in my face, he was confused wanting to be with someone else but afraid to let me go b/c i was a good women. he always told me i m dark and he likes light skinned women at lease once a week for 5 years. when i met him he had nothing....not even a week worth of underwear..working making $5/hr. now he lives in a beautiful house i paid $5k down on, with all my furniture,,,etc. he was making 50k. i stood by him and support him financially.

i packed my bag and left him while he was at work (in philly and moved down south with my son) which was the best thing i could ever do. but i had to start over and i had it rough, i even started having health problems. wheres the karma