I am sorry your are in this situation. It
sounds like an anxiety attack. It is a
normal response to trauma and stress.
If you are faced with the possible death
of your mother from cancer, I'd day that
is pretty traumatic.
Since she said that impatient thing to
you...I imagine she is in pain, on
medication or having some discomfort of
course...but, you may have sort of come up
with something to focus attention on
yourself and away from her...there are
many, many reasons people do this,
especially if you are the baby of the
family. That is what is normal for you and
you are trying to get back to "normal"
right now.
Time to do a little maturing...which is
also normal.
It is time for the focus to be on her and
for you to be strong so she can fight her
own battle and not yours this time...I am
sure she has been there to comfort you in
time of trauma, stress and illness...right
now she needs you to fill that role. It is
very normal.
But, if you keep obsessing about it and it
keeps you from functioning normal day to
day stuff...then get some professional
help to get strong again.
Take care, and you are not crazy.
