I have a loving family, i have good self esteem and i have plenty of opportunities to be a happy teen. The one thing thats bothering me though is that i know im alright looking, i have a nice and quirky personality (people have told me, im not big headed ) and i have people who like me. I wouldnt necessarily call them my friends though. We have fun and are friendly towards on another and share secrets and stuff likes best friends do, but my 'friends' dont really care for me. I can tell. Its just that if i ask them to go out or come over to hang out they always make excuses or are 'busy'. Im in half term atm for 2 weeks, and havent been out once with anyone. I ask loads of people to go out or hang out and they just dismiss me. I see on fb all of these people with hundreds of pictures of them with friends, and going out everyday or with friends most of the time. I want to that. I just think, what could be so wrong with me that no one really likes me. This may seem shallow but no boy fancys me or wants to go out with me and im just getting so sick of all of it. I know im not some freak who everyone loves to secretly hate, but it is just getting to the point where everytime someone rejects me im so used to it i just say to myself before they say no, why bother its never going to happen. Its getting so bad that i have been thinking of suicide for like a year (but anger comes from this and i want to kill my self because im so angry coz im alone :/). I know ill never do it, its just i want to feel appreciated apart from my family. Thanks to anyone in advance. From a 15 year old looser.
These years can seem like some of the hardest years of life for some. Hang in there... you will get through it. Feeling alone is a normal feeling that many people feel all the time but it is something nobody talks about. There wouldn't be love in the world without loneliness.
It may hurt a lot sometimes but try to be grateful for what you do have in your life. These 'friends' dont sound like real friends if it is to hard to hang out with them.
I can tell you this because over the past year I have been in a similar situation to you but I have realised I was to dependent on friends to be happy. The problem was I cared to much about people and trusted them to much now I only trust two people in my life. My bro and a close friend.
If it ever feels overwhelming, like if you do come across a friend or someone you can trust that you can talk to, it will help you, but don't count on it. You can only count on yourself to get the support you need.
You are not a loser