I feel devastated even though it's my first time.

Hi - Just signed up to this website as I'd be so grateful of some moral support. My husband is infertile and it has taken him 3 years to be comfortable with me having a donor. I finally had treatment but haven't got pregnant. I feel devastated even though it's my first time. This seems like a silly overreation on my part... it was just that I want to get pregnant so much and I think I may be hanging 3 years worth of angst on it! I have had tests and everything is fine with me but I'm 37 so worrying. I'm suprised how depressed it has made me feel. It's quite an ordeal, the 2 week wait from ovulation to testing. It'll be hard to go though it each month emotionally but I know I must do it. Has anyone else had the same thing - even if not with donor sperm, just with the emotion of wanting to get pregnant each month? It's tough hey? xx