I feel alone, I can't find love and I am depressed

Hi people

My name is Chris, I am 27 years old. I feel so alone, I have no friends I just spend most of my time with my cousin, but I can't be with him every time i need to be with somebody because he has his own life as well. I try to talk to him that i suffer from public anxiety and i need to be with someone or at least talk with someone but he can't understand.

Besides, friends my real disappointed is that i never had a relationship with a girl, all my life so far i never heard at least once the phrase "I love you". I really don't know where i will look for and how I flirt with girls, suffering from public anxiety it makes it so hard.

On weekdays the feeling of loneliness is not so bad because I am at work, at night I take some courses at the university (I study Master in Media) around 10 pm I go home I have dinner and I sleep for the day. The problem of loneliness is so strong at weekends because I spend many hours at home. I am also want to die because my life is pointless, I suffer too much because of this.

The problem becomes worst and worst by the time that past. I have been to the therapist but she didn't help me.