I feel alone and crying on the inside

Hi there,

I'm having a hard time dealing with tonight. I'm going through a bad stage in a relationship. I've lost connection to my long distance girlfriend. My feelings are still really strong but she's not communicating like she used to. I've asked her about it and she said it's true, she has lost some feeling for me. It is partly my fault - I was not communicating well with her too a few weeks ago. I just felt I needed space to think about the relationship and where it was going, or space from it. Long distance is so hard I know, and we have a cultural difference too. I just thought we could make it work, even though we have a lot of disagreements and miscommunication. I thought with positive feeling and care for each other, we could get through those barriers. It seems like the negative has outweighed the positive for her, and she is giving up.

So tonight, I feel like it's not going to happen. And I'm feeling really sad and alone. I'm not crying on the outside, but on the inside there is pain. It feels heavy and energy sapping. And last week, I had no motivation to do anything. Normally I go to the gym, eat healthily, but last week I could barely eat and I have not been sleeping well. I feel like I've been retracting from society. I don't want to talk to anyone, and going to work is a burden. I would dearly like to be happier or be able to see through this. See that even if it doesn't work out, I will be able to feel this way about another girl in the future. She's not the only one. Or, maybe it can still work out. Maybe it's all in my head? I just want to be able to get through the next few days without suffering every minute of the day.

Thanks for listening.