I'I'm a 23 year old male, I hate myself and the world, I don't like feeling this way at all. I don't want to be a typical case of being a cry baby, but I feel like I'm at witts end. I have a very disfunctional family, who turned their backs on me. They where emotional, verbally, and physicly abusive to me and my siblings. For 23 years I've been sufering with feeling alone, unsure of myself, hating myself physicly and emotionaly, why I don't matter, abandonement, I see people in public with these great lives and both parents and I hate them but it makes me hate myself more. My mind is constantly going from one hateful thing t another and from angry to sad to frustrated. I can't take it anymore. I knowi need help and a therapist. But I've tried and its not enough I just wat to eel content with myself and my life, and just let go of the hate and pain. Start living normal for once. Maybe get some closure. How do I do that? What should I do?
Seems like it takes a long time to feel better. I've seen meds and cognitive therapy work wonders...........after watching helplessly as one of my family members struggled for more than 20 years. he now has a child of his own and a great life. Still suffers from depression sometimes. he's having a good life. Don't give up. Help is out there but it can take awhile to get where you want to be. ..