Ok so this is my story i am 16, I am in 10th grade ever since the beggining of the school year there has been this girl that I really like. So its been maybe 6-8 months now that ive known her we have become good friends. She dated one of my good friends and the first time she dated him she broke up with him for some other guy. The next two times he he broke up with her and hurt her bad i guess. She flirts with alot of guys anyways. Me and her went to a party and we ended up getting drunk then making out =] all was fine then she invited me over one night so she snuck out with me i rode my bike down to her house its a good 5 miles. When i got there we smoked some and chilled then we decided to laydown and look at the stars so we did. I started to shiver soo well she sujested we go inside her house well i was like okay. When we got into her house we got in bed and she got me to take off my shoes socks and jacket she snuggled up against me i was kinda drunk she just smoked a few ciggeretes. Well we layed there and talked for about 11 mins why i got warm i noticed her head was quite compfortable close to mine and i didnt know if she wanted to kiss me or not. Well i told her i really wanted to kiss her and she said no your drunk ... well i said okay but im really kinda sober it was okay i was a litle sober but drunk enough to be horny but know how to make the right decision well after about 5 more mins of talking i noticed her face SLOWLY moving closer to mine and a slight tilt so i thought to my self alright i get to make out well i was right so we made out for a good 10 mins on and off then i asked her to be my gf ( we had already established this was a date before i even left the house) she kissed me and said hows that for a yes. I said super. Well then we layed and cuddled for a while making off on and off we got really intense during it on and off and at a point i got my shirt off and she got hers and her bra and well i kinda fingerered her till she said she was about to have a heart attack ( iunno if she wanted me to stop but i got fast and i guess im good at hitting all the points ) anyways so i didnt go any further we made out for about 1 and 1/2 hours and cuddled on and off from there then i left with a kiss goodbye. the next time i rode my bike down to her house again we walked around for a while it was warmer. it started to rain so we went inside. basically same deal except her dog was on the bed and she didnt want to kiss infront of it i sinced a little weird anyways she made out with me anyways a few times it was mainly just cuddling when her dog left we just found all these differant possitions to cuddle in then i started to play with her boobs lol i guess it turned her on cause we started we made out but this time she said my belt was hurting her so i took it off along with my pants lol so i was in my boxers.... and she was shirtless and so was i eventually she got her pants and panties well we made out ... very intensly for about 15 mins dry humping like we would have had sex if i had my boxers off sometimes i fingered her but i dont think she liked me doing that but thats weirded considering everything else thats going on ... anyways well we stoped and cuddled for a while then we started up again very intenslywell i left around the same time as i did before and i left with a kiss and a i love you we said that alot when we were making out we even decided that we had a song that night. the next time was sunday and we had school so i didnt sneak out we were tired... well monday at school it was cool she would talk to me but she really didnt act like my gf i know there is this guy that likes he pretty hot guy to but so am i and apparently she choosed me well that night i text her and asked her why she didnt act like my gf like i was feeling distanced Oh i didnt mention this after i asked her out she said i dont know why u trust me im just gonna hurt you ... anyways after i said that she said im just not ready for a serius relation ship so i figured it was about my friend that hurt her before anyways i told her i loved her and we could move as fast as we please ...
well she said i dont know why you love me im just gonna hurt me it was the same way tommorow on the buss she broke up with me through a text message ... well we stayed ok friends i rode my bike to her house during the week end she didnt act like she had any feelings for me at all any more everything that she did before disappeared but we still had a fun time we didnt drink or smoke well then the next week me and her and my friend went out we had fun but we didnt do anything i took her back to my house she took some of my cloths...my jacket well she wears it eveyr day when she has a ton of damn jackets arg anyways a few days later we went and snuck out with my friend i was still depressed this is 1 week after the break up she acts all distanced from me but we have alot of fun talk and chill act cool anywyas i got depressed and i had alchol so i drank like 16 shots of vodka u know cause i missed heri got drunk and i told her how i felt about her she said she still likes me she just cant date me =[ she took my hat and my shirts now she wears my hat and my jacket every day .. well after i got super wasted that night she stayed with me hugging me laying me down on her knee having me drink water acting like she cares she walked me to the car arm around me and on the way home cuddled against my chest like she loved me then the next day she acted like nothing happened i need help im hurt and confused
I have no idea how to read or or even if she cares about me if u can just tell me something please