Hi, I'm 17 and in college.
I've been having counselling for a couple months now for a 6 mnth+ depression an anxiety issues, but my panic attacks, although not so often as they were, just seem to have gotten worse.
I just completely freak, I'm stuck to wherever I'm sat, not daring to move a muscle, and then almost subconsciously I will just leave.
A total 'flight or fight' thing. It happens on the bus, on my way to lessons, But now it's happened so that I can't get to counselling
And I don't know what to do.
Becausebefore I would find myself going home, on a bus or walking or whatever- just trying to get home
But today, home didn't feel safe. I don't k ow why but I just didn't feel like I had a safe place to go,
So... Somehow I'm at the hospital. Which is, I don't know how far away, but the past couple hours are a blur.
Im Not IN hospital, but in the cafe. Having a cup of tea and trying to breath and generally calm down.
But I really need advice, because I just feel at such a loss now.
Not just, what to do now (get on a bus, call my mum etc-)
But how can I get to counselling? Or into college and my lessons
I don't understand. Because today i only had english, and i love English! I understand english, my lessons my teacher, everything should be fine,
So what's wrong with me?
And how do I fix this?! I hate crying on the bus and in cafes, I used to be so independent! But now as soon as I'm on my own I get panic attacks and feel like I'm going to just shatter to pieces at the smallest thing.
Ugh, just, if anyone has any ideas to what I should do, now and in the long run, it would be greatly appreciated,
Oh, Lucy. I'm so sorry you're going through this. You're going to be ok. You'll get to your therapist and tell them about this and they will help you. Can you call your mum to come and pick you up? Are you on any anti-anxiety medications? If not, maybe it's time to talk to your doctor about them. Please let me know how you're doing- I'll check in in a bit to see.
Thankyou so much for your reply
I did call my mum in the end, and luckily she had finished work and could pick me up.
I'm sticking to my therapist at the moment and will talk about what happened when I next see them, but will also defiantly enquire with my doctor to see if I'm on the right track
And, with what happened, I thought I'd change my tactics a bit XD
That, rather than having some big battle with how I'm feeling, and end up all exhausted and well, in hospital,
I was told by a friend to just, try to majorly distract my self as much as I can, and just focus on whatever else I can rather than let those feeling manifest.
Im now carrying a couple of books wherever I go, so if I start freaking out, a getaway is just in my bag rather than a couple hours away
Thankyou so much again X)
Just needed someone to tell how I felt more than anything x