todays is my 18th wedding anniversary- and I lost my husband 5 years ago trough suicide,,, im 39 years old and I know im depress.. nothing makes me happy - i have a good life now- a husband (??) who truly loves me, stepdaughters who love me, my family, friends but i can't be happy-- i just can't--- what is wrong with me??i have sucesfull job, im a good person, i don't do drugs but im not happy and is driving me crazy - sometimes i think about just go away- meaning letting go be free and maybe comebak happier!! help me!!