i cut myself

I did it as well, I cut myself for 2 years because I couldn't live with myself normally.

It's like a drug, you become dependent on it, you feel like you need it to survive. I remember feeling as if I was suffocating if I went more that a day without cutting myself.

For the sake of your sanity, please don't do it. Play a violent video game or something along those lines to get rid of your feelings of self-blood-lust.

ok thanks for the help it just really scared me how i did it and i dont think im EVER going to do it again thanks

Hi charlie8889,

I want you to start a journal, whenever you get the urge to cut yourself, write down exactly what your feelings are, what is triggering you mentally to want to cut yourself. Ask yourself these questions; What is it about me that would cause me to self inflict? What am I feeling when I cut myself. Do I enjoy seeing myself bleed? Do I want to feel pain or love? Is this a kind of self seeking control over my life...over something that I need control of? Do I love myself? Is this a form of releasing the pain from bullying from others at school, an attention getter, an I'll-show-you sort of revenge for not getting what you want from others. What good could ever come from me cutting myself? Charlie, you have yet began to live, there is so much awaiting for you; good things that you can have if you are willing to write out everything that is causing you pain, and rechannelling that pain onto paper via poems, a song, in journal, painting, whatever postitive form you choose, just keep it positive. We need young people to take over, you are our future, get help if you must but stop cutting yourself and love you for the wonderful, intelligent, gifted son your parents brought into this world. We need you.

Good Bless,

Faded Rose

thanks for that thats really helped me thank you soo much for your comments

thanks for that thats really helped me thank you soo much for your comments

cutting sucks. its addictive. I counted 55 cuts on my ankles tonite