Q: i cant stop cutting
asked by:
dont_look
on March 17th, 2008
New User
hi my name is eva and i am 14 years old. i have started minor self harming a few years ago but a year and a half ago i met a friend who cut herself. i dont no why i started, mayb i was influenced by my friend or mayb i just felt like it was the right thing to do. it felt good to cut myself, i didnt need to focus on my mental pain. ive tried so many times to stop but after a few days especially if i was really down i would start again. my other friend found out and so did my school counsellor. then when my parents told me i was moving to australia i was sad yet i was sort of happy because this meant a fresh start. at first everything was well. no one knew i cut and i had stopped but then my cousin aunty sister and parents found out. i found it difficult to tell my mum why i did it. i have never really talked to her about my problems before. soon after i started cutting again but i couldnt do it on my wrists anymore since my parents would find out so istarted to do them on my hips and legs. i really want to stop but i cant. i just find it very difficult to talk to people about my problems especially my family since ive never really talked to my family about those kind of things before. it might sound weird but when i dont cut myself i feel like im not me and ive gotten so used to cutting its sort of become something i have to do when im upset or frustrated. but i dont no...maybe im just weird.
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