I'm not even sure where to start.....
Basically I'm having itching "attacks"
whenever my heartbeat increases. I can be
walking up the stairs and have it trigger,
I can be hearing an annoying ad on the
television in the other room and get
annoyed and have it trigger, I can be
suprised by a creature jumping out from
behind a corner in a video game and have
it trigger.... I'm 19, i weigh about 182
lbs, im probably 5 foot, 11 inches
tall...and I have no idea what to do....
I've been taking allergy+antihistamines in
lotion and pill form for about 2 months
now and its just getting worse...my mom
says that its just allergies and I'll grow
out of it soon enough but.....if this
doens't stop I'm seriously considering
suicide, it's that horrible...
I can feel myself go into a "triggering"
state and I immedietely slow WAY down, i
basically stop in my tracks and
concentrate on my breathing. If I was in
the middle of a conversation or something
I'll just walk away and go lay down on my
bed's cool sheets. Sometimes stopping and
focusing on remaining calm can make the
"state" pass, but usually it just delays
it.
When triggered it feels like someone is
throwing those little firework poppers on
me, kinda like a spark is landing on me,
all super concentrated on a certain area,
usually on my shoulders or sides. Then it
feels like its ignited, literally, my
entire upper skin section. Like that
spark ignites my fuel covered
chest+scalp_back+and shoulders and I turn
red all over and am just overcomed by
itchiness, its all over my upper body and
no matter how much I scratch it just won't
stop itching.
That lasts for about 2 whole minutes but
it feels like much longer...then after its
done I'm left in the "triggering" state
again so I just lie there for a while til
it passes. When it is over I feel soooo
good, that must be what mood swings are
like. =/ I can't go running anymore, I
can't go to any stores, I can't help
people do pretty much anything without
getting these attacks.
I don't even want to think about getting a
job, what kind of job could allow me to
function without getting these episodes?
This is crazy....this body is so crappy,
lmao. I've searched around and I seem to
be suffering from an extreme case of this~
Cholinergic Urticaria ~ It doesn't have
a cure as far as I can tell.... I can't
live with this much longer, hell I'm
hardly living at all....I just sit around
being careful to not exert myself...plz
help.
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