I am ugly and depressed.

Hi honey and welcome to the forum..I am so sorry you feel this way..People can be really cruel especially in school..

I know that I have things about me that I find awful and not just saying that..I have to have a surgery and will be saving money up to have some plastic surgery done..

When I was younger I had people make fun of my face..I had an overbite and my jaw jutted out some..My nose is to big on the tip making my face lopsided..No I see this and there are those who made fun of me and those who tell me there is no problem..

I'm telling you this because I know that I am saving money to have surgeries that will help with the problems areas I talked about..I know that this will help me feel better about me..

Talking with someone and getting out of the house is really needed..You are important and need to be out in the world..

Don't be ashamed of saying what you feel..But, do something about it..You have wrote this forum and asking for help..Tis is a big step in itself..

FOr years my mom use to tell me how stupid and ignorant I was..I believed it because I was told that so many times..Then the meaness of others compounded those thoughts..But, you know what I am not stupid, ignorant nor ugly...I have things I wnat to ahve changed to help me with my esteem to help me put on what I feel will be my best..You can do this honey..It takes a few dollars and desire for change..Don't wait as long as I did though..I wish I had been more stubborn about this when I was your age..

I am here if you want to talk more..I know others will step up and talk as well..God Bless..K

Hi kdlee. thank you for your kind words. I have never considered surgery. I agree getting out is important. I am currently studying chem and maths at home.

I hope to change my diet hopefully my hair and skin improve. I pulled out allot of my hair and find it hard to cover the bald patches.

I hope that I find someone loves my imperfections but I do not think I would make a good girlfriend for someone until I am happy.

Maybe changing my nose could give me more self esteem. i'm not sure. I am afraid my that if I do change my face my family wont recognize me.

I know that inner beauty is more important then outer beauty. I still desire to be pretty. I'm also aware that many women and men who aren't extremely good looking get dates.

There you go honey..You are already thinking more positve..:^)..Sometimes we just gotta slow down a little..

You are right-when you get you together you will be more happier with someone else..Sometimes the best things happen when we aren't trying or looking..You will find a mate and they will be a strong mate for you..

Chem and math--oh my..I was never good at these two subjects..I love English though..I admire anyone who can do these subjects..What are you going to school for? What are you going to do when your schooling is complete?

Hey there are some really cool scarfes that you can plut over your head..Or, you could go ahead and shave your head and then when the hair comes back in it will be the same length all over..

Diet is one of the major things I will be changing with my surgery..I tried a lap band to help lose weight and thentheband has eroded into the stomach lining..So, I have to have the band out..With all my auatoimmune problems was told could not have any other bariatirc surgery..So,I will once again work with diet and over the past 2.5 years will see what is new to the diet world..

If you want to keep in touch just PM me..I try to do follow up posts but lose my way sometimes when I post to too many forums so am trying to stay clsoer to home so to speak..

Prayers for restful sleep and new beginning in the mroning..k

I hope the lap band works for you. I love english too, unfortunately it is not my forte

I'm guessing this is an american forum. It's 1pm in Aus atm. lol.

I'm not sure.I quit high school in year 11, spent few years looking for work. I then started studying through correspondence at home and completed highschool at home.

At the beginning of this year I was at university but I quit a few weeks ago. I find it hard to be around other people and most of the time want to hide at home. The careers councillor at uni said the subjects that I have completed will add to my degree next year.

Next year I will be at university( in america you probably call it college). I am going back next year. I am looking for casual work for this semester. I am getting counselling and reading self-help books.

You're not ugly at all lol! i think maybe they pushed you around because you would'nt give them the time of day.
Maybe they felt ugly, maybe they we're lonely and could'nt get a decent girlfriend.
Do'nt let that rule your life, of course you'll have a boyfriend, he'll come do'nt worry.

Hey Dark, thanks for saying I'm not ugly. I think maybe allot of people are frail and have low self esteem.

I think that my low self esteem can cause me to say things that offend people. I’m not diplomatic.

Before high school I had no idea people could be so vicious.

Thx again, I’ll try not to let it ruin my life anymore.

What was high school like for you?
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being depressed your thoughts are negative, you usually isolate yourself or stop talking to your friends.
i want you to take back your life!!!
are you able to call your old friends to see how they are doing? do not isolate yourself from people.
do you have anyone that you can confide in about how you feel.
when i was in middle school i was picked on a lot, i had low self esteem and i picked myself apart. and i have been battling depression for over 18 years. so i know how you feel.
i m hear to tell you that you dont have to go though it alone. are you able to see a therapist?
when i get depressed...negative thoughts creep in my head and i force myself to think positive. dont allow depression to eat you up.
you can private message me anytime.

I agree with Dark..You're not ugly at all, inside out outside..I'm glad to hear that you are getting counseling because that is what I was going to suggest. You know, sometimes in high school and even middle school kids will get bullied because other kids can see that they are insecure and I think that is what happened to you. I know this because I used to be a teacher, actually I still am but I'm in the middle of a career change. You have a long way to go in order to get over this and hopefully your counselor/therapist is working with you on these issues that you have with your self-esteem...Have you been to a psychiatrist? Are you taking anti-depressants? That is something you might consider to help you along. Also, try some exercise in your free time. If you can find a yoga class it's wonderful and really helped me with my depression. Please keep us posted and I hope you feel better soon..You're young, you have your whole life ahead of you, you're not ugly, those bullies who made fun of you are ugly. Keep going for counseling and find some activities you enjoy and things will improve for you.

ServiceU -"when i get depressed...negative thoughts creep in my head and i force myself to think positive" I admire your strengh. At times my depression totally consumes me and I throw rationality out the window. I will private message you sometime.


wendyrs, I like your idea of finding a yoga class. I will find one on Monday. I don't like vigorous exercise.

That's great! Yoga is wonderful for mental health. Let me know what you find and how it goes.

Heyaa babe xx just to let you know, you
Are not ugly and never will be other people
May say that but please ignore as they are
Ignorant and stupid and need to get a life
The most popular boy at my school asked
Me out last week he said I was pretty I
Don't even know him so i said no. Boys
Don't want your personality babe they want
The looks but there not the kind if boys u
Want Hun one day u will find the boy of your
Dreams and he will be amazing he won't want
Looks he'll want u and that's what u need
To be proud of

God bless u babe xx