I am bipolar. I am new to this forum..please give feedback

This is my first day on this particular site and my second post. I am still on meds but would like to be off them partly because I am just as likely to feel like a zombie on them as off them. It seems to be very hard for me or a doctor to find exactly what meds would work best. I need energy drinks now just to energize, shape up, focus and pay attention to my life. I feel disconnected from my own poor existence. To answer your question, I have been diagnosed from different doctors with everything from Generalized Anxiety and Social Phobia to, more recently, Bipolar Disorder. I feel like I have them all but am being treated for the depressive bipolar episodes. I feel inescapably sad and miserable for no reason and have tried many things to escape it but not stuck with anything.

Hi Ive been diagnosed with bipolar since age 12, Im a damn, sorry 37 (just turned it). Ive been on everything you just name it I'll answer a question about it. Ive been in my share of hospitals and sometimes belong in one but I want to stay out of them cause then they like to experiment on you. I have bipolar2 the depressive side of it too. I had to go off my antidepressents after being on again over a year it wasn't working anymore. But I'm on a mood stabalizer. You should at least be put on a mood stabalizer. If the dosage is too much for your body tell them to decrease it. Since you said your not too well off the meds too. There are so many antidepressents out there maybe 1 is for you. There are 2 for me I haven't tried and goin to question my doctor about it, but don't want to start again on 1 till another month or so, my body needs a break, you know. I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder too. How old are you? When were you diagnosed the bipolar disorder? Right now I feel sad and miserable but there are reasons for mine right now, but been in your shoes @helpix where for no reason whats so ever I feel that way too...while I was on the meds. I need someone to talk to, I don't have but 1 true friend and this really bothers me, I can't stay in a relationship either can you? The thing is you have to have motivation to work on yourself and I have lost it. I want it back. When I have motivation I start doing things again and I start feeling better about myself. So girls get some motivation. Try anything to get it. Are you seeing a therapist? They wont let me see one again till I go to 2 group therapys, I don't do well in groups. My awesome therapist that just started working on me left. Find a good therapist for yourself and stick with her or him. And if your not comfortable with the therapist, get a new 1!! Well I don't know if I helped you at all but you can be my friend on here and I can tell you more private stuff in messages about my life as a woman with bipolar.

I don't know if my response post I sent is supposed to be here or is lost somewhere else on this site. Could've sworn I saw it. Basically, I said I appreciate your attention and comments. For a male about to hit 43, I'm not good with people or relationships. This is a problem because life is precious and we only get one chance. It's either enjoy it or quiet desperation. My relationship with my therapist has settled into something that may not be productive anymore. In my late teens I started showing strong signs of some kind of disorder and did seek help. It wasn't until about my late twenties was I made to understand how I'm letting GAD ruin my life. Roughly 5 yrs ago, A different doctor diagnosed me with Bipolar, I really wish I had a different person's brain. Ever feel like you are fighting with self? Well it appears to be a conflict between the self who wants to be left alone vs the psychology that wants to antagonize me in every way possible.

Hey helpfix, I have a number of harmless questions for you, but would not feel entitled to ask before explaining myself yet by also grabbing your attention, adding that I too am bipolar. I've have been out of manic, depressive and irrational social anxiety for 2 years.

There are many ways to go about if you have been, and for some extended periods of time feeling like u have been wronged at how messed up you can be feeling. Excuse my language, but for those with the disease, there is no other word to describe our shifts of emotional turmoil.

Luckily, I myself have found a great doctor. Just at his peek of retirement age, with the experience needed to find the right medications and even dosage for such a complex disease. I am not here to boast about my success, I just need for u to understand the amount of effort it takes to cure bipolar. Everyone is different with bipolar, so I realize how naive it may sound to post what worked for them.

And, to make this as brief as possible, because returning or even starting a new life without the emotional prison is all worth it and believe me, it really is, anything is worth a shot at recovery. I have a list of meditation routines, and years of experience and studying how the mind works, like no other Socrates available if you are willing to give it a shot.

Just reply here and I'll give my email.