i am 34 and have never been on one date! literally
and gosh its nothing i have done or not done
i am just not attractive
and not is not self esteem
guys just have never been interested enough
i feel left out
most of my friends
actually right now
all of my friends are married
some have kids
and i dont
i cant have kids
not only do i feel left out
i feel behind

i cant have kids
actually i was told i had a gender reassignmentt surgery when i was young
i have no female parts of any kind
genetics tests concluded i was supposed to be a boy
chromosomally i am xy not xx

i was raised a girl
whatever that means
but i never experienced anything a normal girl experienced
no firt period
that was never going to happen
no first date
no first dance
no first kiss
i have experienced none of that
and i am very mad at this!!!!!!!

hmm being shy is irrelevant
and self esteem is a cop outi dont revert too

guys dont know my medical condition
so how does any of that have anything to do with me not dating

this has depressed me
leaves me hopeless
leaves me beyond confused
and religious people are ignorant
and offer no solution
and are very dumb about this

bottom line
what most people get to experience and take for granted
i never experienced

basically i am without a gender
as i dont identify with either

i am not feminine
anti girly

i like what guys like
except gals in that way

also why are some poeple defined by their sexual preference
like that person is straight or gay
come one
they are being labeled by that
so they are not a person
but are defined by sexual orientation

i can never have sex
i have no desire for sex

many poeple have counted me out for marriage
ok
but if a relationship allegedly cannot survive without it
why aer so many ones failing with it?
and they do

thanks