i am about to cry

i have a bipolar boyfriend. and everytime we try and date it throws him into a huge rage issue. not at me but at his parents and they shout and they are big people so its not quiet. i have ocd and anxiety and my anxiety shot right off the roof i am feeling kinda sick right now and my hand tremors and so bad i can barely type this. i really care about him but i dont know if i can deal with the shouting. it hurts me so much even though its not at me. it could be someday if i live with him ever. he was contemplating going off of his meds and i think he actually will and i feel bad because i gave him the idea when i said i am thinking of going off my meds. wrong thing to say. now i know i will regret that and other stuff i said that he will probably tell his parents. what do i do?

p.s. i wasnt going to go off my meds i was kinda making a point that i wish i didnt have to take meds and that i didnt have ocd. i wouldnt go off of my meds because last time i got taken off one of my meds i ended up i the psych ward because i went psychotic and that wasnt my idea but my psych doctors