I am a Husk of a Human

I'm not a medical professional. It just that Ive been through this. You dont notice when you're on top and having fun that no ones there.. because your having fun. People want to be around you.. Its when your down that you realize none of those people are real. I know a lot of people.. I only have 3 real friends.. The people who pull through for you when you make it known that you need help are always the last people you would have ever guessed. Im glad that you are going to see a counselor. If i had done that a long time ago maybe i wouldnt be here. I'm in a bad place right now with depression and anxiety but.. none of its because i don't have people.. when i was were you are right now.. in school.. friendless.. event less... lonely.. I actually started finding things i wanted to do and just did them myself. I read a few self help books.. started exercising.. went to movies and did things I wanted to do. People like being around people who .. like being around themselves. At least in my experience. Like i said - I'm not a professional and i have my problems.. but that's my take on it. If you want to confront your "friend" do it honestly.. don't sensor yourself. If you dont.. once hes alone and has nothing to do and your out doing your thing.. he'll start asking why you dont want to hang out with him.