Hi to anyone that may read this. I am lucky enough to have been born with a mutated gene that gave me a genetic heart disorder. Doesn't that suck. Basically what happened to me is that I was born with a heart disorder that I didn't know I had till I was a junior in high school. Basically the disorder is HCM, hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. My heart 2 x's bigger than it is suppose to be, but only half of my heart is 2 x's bigger, the other half is normal size. On top of that I inherited an abnormal heart beat and recently have been diagnosed with mildly high blood pressure and on top of all of that I haven't even have reached my 21st birthday yet. I have 3 problems with my heart that most people do not get till they are in their 60s-70s yr old. I have almost died 2 times because of this heart problem.

Yet I am living life. I have played sports and have worked out basically all my life. I have a name to live up to. I am a Tillman, I have had a cousin in Triple AAA baseball and a cousin that used to play professional football for the Arizona Cardinals. I have uncles and cousins who have been ranked nationally as wrestlers and I was ranked one of the best goalies for soccer in the bay area of CA when I was 14.

BUT MY PROBLEM IS.... with my heart condition if I push too hard I can kick my heart into "overdrive" and can kill myself. SO I basically cannot give all I can give to my passion for a sport. BUT THERE IS A TWIST TO THIS, I cannot stop doing sports or working out, I have to keep doing it, Doctors orders! ITS A CATCH 22, I cannot give 100% but I have to still be pretty active. The doctors said that since I've been so active even since I was born that I have to remain that active. So if I go under or above I could die. Im literally living on a fine line, that has death awaiting on either side of the totem pole.

Basically my problem is I want to make my name known just like my cousins and uncles and even my dad, but my problem is that I can't really do that because I could die. I could kick a football and soccer ball a football field length (100 YDS), I could throw a baseball at least 75-80 mph, and I could hit a baseball 425 ft. But the problem is, I'm a liability so I cannot play college ball. SO I CAME UP WITH THIS AS MY CONTRIBUTION TO THE WORLD, I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR OF SPORTS MEDICINE SO I CAN HELP THE PEOPLE WHO CAN BE GREAT AT THEIR SPORT, WHILE I AM STILL INVOLVED WITH SPORTS, I WANT MY CONTRIBUTION TO BE FOR THE GREATER GOOD. HELPING PEOPLE FULFILL THEIR SPORTS DREAMS SINCE I CANNOT FULFILL MINE. THAT IS MY DREAM!

Thats basically my life story so far....isn't that intense?
I just needed to vent...cause I'm kinda bummed that I have this disorder.