I have a problem can anyone give advise? I have been off and on with my sons dad for almost 4 years now, but i dont want to be with him, I dont love him anymore. I just dont have the strength to leave, if i do it will be my 5th time! He also thinks just because i am getting my taxes soon that he knew i would leave and i try explaining it to him and he never listens just yells and freaks out... I am just so tired and weak from all that has went on.. I love my son and will do anything for him, and with me and his dad staying together, i will never be happy and neither will my son. We always get into fights, most of them are just emotionally and mentally hurtful but some can be physical.... He has 2 other kids by a different woman.. I have caught them multiple times in the past messing around and they deny it saying that i am being dillusional..There have been lots of occasions i have caught my sons dad doing something stupid and not right.. But he always makes me feel i am the bad guy and i am a prostitute and i am not worth anyones time and noone will want me if i leave him... It hurts alot especially because i know my son doesnt need to hear and see what goes on.... I am just emotionally wrecked and tired I need help.. but i dont want to be alone.. I want someone that will love me or even like me for who i am and what i do.. and that will have the love for my precious baby boy as much as i do... I pray to god all the time to just let me get strong and get through all this and its like he never answers back as to what i should do...