Well , i ve been in relationship for 3 years , and he brokeup with me fom 4 months , and i cant lie i frgot him sometimes but when i see him i really wanna him to be mesarable not happy and laughing , he hurted me mre than once , i found out he is a cheater , he knew otehr girls within our relation he lied to me , he used me , he made me hatting myself for beliveing and for all these wasting time 3 years being a fool u think this one loves you care abt you wanna be you and want u to be his wife i wasnt ready to this commitement but i needed him and he left me , more than once and everytime i forgive him i cant hurt him i dont know how , i cry when i think i could hurt him , i see him usually every 3 days i hate my weakness , i hate seeing him , i wanna be free , i dont wanna search for him, i dont wanna hear his news , i dont know how , i dont wanna dream abt him i wanna be free from him , how ??? he was my first love im 21 btw but it hurted so much ,it feels so bad , much pain , i dont know wht to do ??