I´m just gonna make this short and simple.

I´m not bad looking.
I´m on a good school (average student)
I have a girlfriend
I have a nice caring family
I have no money issues
No one tells me what to do
I used drugs (marihuana) but I dropped it for my gf

But nontheless, i have the feeling that I left my soul somewhere, lost who knows where, many many... maaany years ago when I was still a child.
I know how to produce a smile, but I forgot how it feels to smile from happyness.

In simple words... I feel like a piece of meat, that can walk around, behave in a way that can bring some interest to other people but this same interest brings nothing to me, as I am hollow inside. I can´t feel and in some way... I´m just waiting for destiny to put an end to what it seems a really pointless situation. I never asked for life and I know (following some prestablished moral rules) that I should cherish this "gift" but it just dont fit, wherever it should be wear in my -soul?-

Can I say... I don´t like life, it brings no interest to me, I feel like a train following its tracks powered by the "I am supposed" thing...