plz help me im really freaked out about this now!

You might be schizophrenic, you have some of the symptoms, but then again it might be the depression that's causing you hallucinations. You should see a doctor.

i need to go see a doctor but my parents wont take me to go get checked out!

You should disclose the details of your situation, tell them everything. If they still refuse to take you to a doctor and you're under 18 you can tell your councillor at school, in the last resort you can call child services or a child help line. You really need this help so be brave.

being brave or self confident isnt the easiest thing for me.

Listen to Philo. You need to find some help. It is out there. If it is easier write it all down and give it to your parents, a counselor, a teacher, clergyman, an adult you feel you can talk to. The symptoms you are experiencing need to be addressed and you need to find treatment. The school should have a social worker or nurse. Go to them and tell them what is going on. They can help you find a doctor to see. Let us know how you are doing with this.

i hate actually having to talk to people i dont even call any of my friends to talk to them! I know i have to talk to someone to get help but i really cant!

Yes, but we also are random people that you probably don't consider your friends, and we're not professionals, but you did talk to us.

Write it down and present it that way. Yes, conversation will follow but this may make it easier for you. Meds can help with anxiety and social phobias. Wouldn't your life improve if you could just get over that hurdle? You need to find the strength deep within you and go to someone.

Anonymity is good for a quick bit of reassurance or to run an idea by people but from a computer you can not get the help you need. We are here for you but we will keep telling you to get to someone who can help you get the medical attention you need. Take care and keep us updated.

go to your school nurse. just take some time off from class and say your not feeling well. tell her you need help but your parents wont take you to a doctor. she could refer you to a county health program that would treat you for very little money if you have no insurance. there are places like that, they give you treatment based on your income, if you do not have insurance, and they are all professionals there. there are people like you that need that kind of help all the time so dont give up. if you can't bring yourself to talk to your school nurse (which is a real good option) then you should tell your counsellor.

Having mostly recovered from schizophrenia myself, though still experiencing the effects from time to time in a much milder way, I would say that you probably do have schizophrenia. I'm no doctor, but I've spent years with the condition and what you describe is fairly similar to what I've experienced. Tell your parents that you think you need help, or see your school counselor about it. What you need most, though, is some friends that you can really trust and confide in, along with the therapy. That's the only way I managed to struggle through it.

I also having being suffering with some of the symptoms that you have described for a while.
It started about 2 years ago when I was getting bullied on a regular basis and would have recurring nightmares of killing the bullies this began to worry me and was worried about maybe me loosing control one day and hurting someone. But like you I would keep myself to myself I suffered a lot of depression and had a low self esteem at the time. It began to get worse when I also thought I was being watched and sometimes followed then the voices began they would start quiet a begin to get louder and louder until the only thing to drown it out was by putting my head under water almost until I passed out. the thoughts would make me more angry and unpredictable then it hit its worst when it had some kind of control of me it made me talk to myself but I had no way of stopping it. I need to see a shrink but it is hard for me to talk to someone because I don’t want to be labeled as a freak or a psycho or to be locked up in a mental asylum this is the only time I have ever talked about it please help me.

You won't be laballed as a freak or locked up in a mental assylum. I had a similar experience to what you are having. unforunately I let it get to the point where i lost total control. I acted really strangely infront of my family ( totally embarressed myself) and thats when my dad took me to the hospital. They kept me in a psych ward for just ONE night. Just to calm me down. They gave me really strong meds which calmed me right down that night..
I spoke to psychiatrist there, they diagnosed me and then sent me home.
After that i had some psychiatrists come to my house for about a week. every two days i think (it's all a bit of a blur) they gave me valiums and sleeping tablets so i could sleep. After that i had a case manager come and see me weekly and we would chat about what had happened and make sure I was okay. She really helped me. I think I saw her for a few months. After that i was pretty much fine.not fully recovered but not as delusional as I was previously.

I know that hardest thing to accept is that you need help. At least you've had a chat and read some stories about it so you do understand it. I had no clue what was going on with me at the time. You do though so i would suggest you tell a family member or a close friend exactly what is going on with you. You need to be admitted to hospital in my opinion. (just for a night) and get medication so that you can recover.

Please tell someone what is going on. You need medical attention...

i feel the same way you do, Ive been accused of having schizophrenia for years now. Ive never told anyone how i feel cuz i dont trust them. I write in a "diary" of sorts and it helps open me up to myself, perhaps you should try it.
my issues:
-I despize physical contact
-many people say i have a duel personality
-i also hear voices, but only one
-there is a constant battle in my mind over every decision i make
-i trust no one and keep everyone outside of my "wall" that is around my emotions
-i do not feel emotions for almost anything unless it is anger, depression, or disgust, whethor that be with myself or the world around me.
-i will often feel as though i just woke up while i may be walking or even driving, i will have no idea how i got there, or where i am going

if anyone has any opinions or advice for me im happy to hear it....

By the way it sounds i think you may have Paranoid schizophrenia. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 17. The voices, constant mood swings and inability to sleep was horrible. But schizophrenia can be cured. Even without the Mental heath people all up in your face. What really helped me is Mari-j-wana. Though its illegal it was the best cure. i started to make freinds faster and have fun more. I suggest you find a freind and actually let them get close to you. What you have to remember is theres nothing wrong with you, and people wont always hurt you. The voices are hard to drown out, but you gotta try to atleast think better thoughts. Prozack might be a good medication if your over 16.
Other than this all i can suggest is, remember.... Sh*t happens, let it go. You only live once dont waste it. Whi cares what happens next or what people think or whatever, just live and let die.

I get scared listening to all the experts that have had the experiences(and they are so listen to them)it is still scary no matter what!. Everyone behaves differently. MOSTLY we want to escape reality! DO this for too long and we end up with our head in the clouds. If you choose! We need REALITY!And it is not easy and it is different for everyone. Ground yourself!Find out why if you have to but stay grounded and in the now, if you are not feeling bliss, then treat it. It is normal to sometimes feel angry, but look at the funny side, because there always is one!