i feel the same way you do, Ive been accused of having schizophrenia for years now. Ive never told anyone how i feel cuz i dont trust them. I write in a "diary" of sorts and it helps open me up to myself, perhaps you should try it.
my issues:
-I despize physical contact
-many people say i have a duel personality
-i also hear voices, but only one
-there is a constant battle in my mind over every decision i make
-i trust no one and keep everyone outside of my "wall" that is around my emotions
-i do not feel emotions for almost anything unless it is anger, depression, or disgust, whethor that be with myself or the world around me.
-i will often feel as though i just woke up while i may be walking or even driving, i will have no idea how i got there, or where i am going
if anyone has any opinions or advice for me im happy to hear it....