Hello, I am just a normal guy who's struggling to manage my own emotions when it comes to being single. I'm 19 years old and have just finished my first year of college. Like another post on here, I went to an all-boys middle and high school, and my social skills have definitely suffered as a result. As one would guess, I've never really had any luck with girls. Very few dates, no kissing or anything beyond that. I've never gotten anywhere with any of the girls that I've seriously liked, and I have pretty bad luck of falling for girls who tend to not be single as well.

I don't have a hard time making friends, I have a lot and I make more and more every day it seems like in school. However, I still have a lot of trouble being around attractive girls. I get really nervous and to be quite honest, I turn into a different person, and that is not a good thing. I'm pretty shy, I guess, but around my friends, I'm pretty loud. My attraction senses are pretty different, so when I do find someone I'm into, it's a pretty rare occurrence. Of course, these occasions have always ended in failure.

Anyway, I have a lot of trouble with my own thoughts about this. Struggling to be optimistic is very hard. How can I be confident when I have no track record of success on which to base it? I over think my lack of success a lot. Sometimes it can really depress me.

I'm not sure what to do. I really want to be in a relationship, mostly because I'm so sick of failing and not being able to experience what it's like to love. I'm sick of my bad luck. So badly do I want to succeed for once. I at least want a chance, just a chance, with a girl that I like. However, I would also really like to stop torturing myself mentally over the matter. It's the absolute hardest problem that I ever face.