I broke up with my ex over a year ago after being with him for 6 months, it all ended very suddenly even though he had said I was the 'one' and he could never imagine being without me, I was totally in love with him and so happy. The only issue I had was he was scared to tell his ex about me but had his reasons because they had a house together and he was worried she'd want more money off him. He said he didn't have feelings for her and wanted to be with me and we were so happy. After we'd been going out for 5 months his ex found out about me and went crazy at him. We split a month later we split because he said he wasn't ready for a relationshi and nothing to do with her (this turned out to be true and had nothing to do with her). I was heart broken because I was 24 and he was 25 and itruly thought I'd found the love of my life. He said he was so sorry but couldn't talk to me because he was too confused about things. We exchanged texts and said I wanted him back but he just kept saying he was sorry and had never intended to hurt me because he had thought I was the one. Anyway over the past year we kept in touch, text each other saw each other out and ona number of occassions slept together (iknow I shouldn't have slept with him but he made me feel so happy and everytime I hoped we'd get back together because he'd be so loving and we'd go out for meals etc and he'd always say it had been good to see me and we needed to stay in touch - I'd feel sohapy for a few days after seeing him but then I wouldn't heR from him and I'd feel so down and deressed. I'd not been with anyone else and he always said he'd not been with anyone else, I truly believed him and couldn't understand why wd couldn't get back together. I knew I couldnt carry on So at Christmas I decided that the new year would mean a new start abs would not include him. So sods law when I got back from holiday he text saying he missed me and wanted to see me - I should have been strong and said no but Iwasnt. The same week I went out with my best mate for a night out and my mate got with my ex's best mate and they are still together now, very much in love. To begin with I thought this was great because we'd go out as a four and have agood time. As time went on I started to hear about girls my ex had met through things my mate had found out from her boyfriend (his friend)and on a night out I saw him kiss another girl and it made me feel so sick and I also found out he'd been talking to his ex and been helping her do up a house she'd bought. I couldn't stop crying and it was at this point I knew I really had to get him out my life. So from about march till the middle of April I did my very best to forget about him but itwas difficult.
especially cos my friend would tell me she'd seen him etc. Then one night he asked her if I still had feelings for him because he'd heard that I'd met another guy and my friend told him I did because I really did and I couldn't forget him. For about two weeks we had a lot of contact and I really thought wedget back together but when I asked him he said he didn't know what he wanted even though he had really strong feelings for me he didn't want to hurt
me. I was heartbroken again and knew he was going on a lads holiday soon and the thought of what he'd get up made me sick so I once again I decided to try and distance myself and get in with my life. Two weeks ago when he was on holiday he was texting me saying he missed me and wanted me back and wanted to talk when he was home so when got back last week we met up to talk about us - he made a point of saying he'd not pulled on holiday etc but when I started to talk about us and what was happening he went very cold, I asked if he meant what he'd said when he was on holiday and said yes it had made him feel very emotional and he knew he needed to sort his life out and didn't want to hurt me that's why he didn't know how to deal with our situation, I said I was prepared to take a risk on order for us to have another go and he suggested we started dating again - I can't explain how happy I was. Anyway last week a friend said there were things I needed to know that she had found out - basicaaly after everything we agreed last week it turns out that he has been seeing his ex, slept with somone on holiday and is intending to see her and also has another girl on the go in this city who is claiming to be his girlfriend, he has also been saying some horrible things about me - I'm absutelty devastated and feel so hurt, betrayed and used! This sounds stupid but I love him but know what he has done is so wrong and I have told hi
I know everything he has been up to and that he has been lying to me and to never contact me again because I don't want him in my life. I can't explain how hurt and lost and lonely I feel right now, he hasn't even replied to me to say sorry or anything so everything I have found put is obviously true. I know have done the right thing telling him to
leave me alone but I just miss him so much, I really don't know what to do with myself or how to move on - he's never going to be out my life because my best friend goes out with his best friend. I hate what's happened and just don't know what to do- does any one have any advice?