alot has been going though my life lately and now i just isolate myself from almost everything. i have a boyfriend, and cheated on him by letting this guy i used to like kiss me. i regret it 100% now and me and my BF are going through some hard times because of it. but now i am not the same person anymore, i just try to regain his trust and strong love like how it used to be before. so i don't hang out with any friends anymore, i hate my home life, and feel hopeless in my relationship with my boyfriend. i used to be funny, love to laugh, everywhere with friends, close with my mom. but now i just like to be by myself all the time, and all i do is cry until i sometimes fall asleep. im only 17 i don't think i shouls be like this, especially my senior year in high school. going to college feel like a drag to me or like it's going to be a bore,just go to my classes and not be involved in anything. im scared to do anything that will make my boyfriend think im doing something, or make him unhappy so i avoid everything tha's fun or relaxing or just normal for a teenager. so far it makes him feel better and less worried and calm, but it has caused sadness and depression for me, and im missing out on everything, im even scared to talk on the phone with anyone but family, so my BF won't think i was talking to some guy. so me and friend don't talk on the phone anymore.all i do is cry now. so how can i feel better or try to feel better? help anyone
don't be depressed sweetie hard times come and go.
we need to work in order to get what we want.
at the beginning when you were not interested in your boyfriend and you were focusing on how to enjoy your life you were happy and your boyfriend was crazy about you. but when you start sacrifying every thing for him and trying to pleas him forgetting your self , your life your friends you lost him. because you give up your life to pleas him and thats what he forced you to do but its not what he wants you to do. because he choose the old girl the happy one the one who is busy with every one but since you changed your no longer the girl that he first met so your not interesting any more and your not what he is looking for any more. i guess your friends are bothered because you left them for him and they blame you.
you miss understand the different between being loyal (trust worthy) and being isolated.
in your previous post you said your 16 and now your 17 . im not sure hun if your honest with every thing. pay attention to the way you talk and act maybe its the reason why your boyfriend doesn't trust you.
my advice to you sweet heart is try to improve your self learn and educate your self.
get your life back. your friends .have fun talk with them in phone l. remember hun we are not loyal for the sake of love but we are loyal for the sake of values.