How can I overcome this?

I don't think any of that sounds foolish. I am 17 and have at least two forms of depression (clinical and psychotic) as well as severe insomnia like you speak of. i have also experience heartache that has created parts of this ( been raped at 15). i understand the ease of not moving or getting up. other than seeking help and even if you do the best way is to start working towards loving yourself. and i understand the weight of that task. two years in and i am not quite there YET. until you can feel that way towards yourself i want you to know something i wish i had. that you are not alone and i cannot speak for everyone but as someone who has gone through, and still do every day, what you do i can say that i am proud of you for everything you do and i love you.

It's nice to hear from someone who's diagnosed with the same thing. I've been in therapy and mental rehabilitation for two years. None of it seems to work. Antidepressants can only delay my depression for so long, then I just see her face at school and gain back the painful memories

i understand about seeing her again. with the psychosis i see the girl who hurt me's face or if i see a picture of her. it brings the hurt right back to the surface.