hi there,
im 20 and i have a raging temper. whenever
i get angry at someone, my heart races and
i feel like i couldnt breathe. not only
that, i hit myself.
i deliberately hit myself over and over
because it makes me feel good. i
repeatedly hit my head then my thighs, my
hands, my face, anywhere i feel like until
it becomes all red. sometimes it got so
bad, my head will have bumps as i hit
really hard.
when i hit myself, i dont feel the pain.
its like my hands get out of control and i
feel like hitting something. the only
problem is that, the thing im hitting is
myself. i do this all the time when im
angry at someone.
if we get into a fight, i will always feel
like it's my fault. eventhough i know its
not my fault. i will always blame and harm
myself to feel better. and it does feel
better, for a while. then i'll feel all
rotten inside and i hate myself for it. i
also feel worthless.
i cant control this behaviour. the need to
harm myself takes over me, like a demon.
its like i cant stop. i dont think about
suicide whenever i hit myself because i
dont want to die. i feel better whenever i
hit myself because i know im 'punishing'
myself.
i dont want my family to know.. im tired
of living like this, harming myself to
make myself feel better.. its tiring..
please help me.
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antigone
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Joined: 27 Jan 2008 Posts: 803 Location: IL
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Posted: 05-07-08 17:50pm
Have you seen a psychiatrist about this
issue? Self harm can be a symptom of a
mental health disorder, anxiety disorder,
depression.... The anger aspect of the
episodes you describe needs to be
addressed. Find a good psychiatrist and
get treated.
Hi, I have a three year old with autism
that does this to himself. He hits me and
his little brother but, mainly hits
himself. Anytime he is corrected or upset
about anything, he punches himself in the
head over and over. This has been a major
concern for me so, the pshyciatrist is
going to try some behavioral therapy and
if that doesn't work she is going to try
medication so, you may want to see a
pshyciatrist.
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apple21
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Joined: 27 May 2008 Posts: 2 Location: vacaville,
I understand Posted: 05-27-08 11:35am
I had this same problem when i was
teenager, i would cut my self, i would
blame my self for every problem around me
and the only way i knew to get out my
anger was to hurt myself, i could see what
i was doing but never felt the pain, it
got to the point where i tried many time
to kill myself. and was in the hospital
once. Let me tell you the only thing that
got me through this was my family and my
husband(boyfriend at the Time), if you
don't have people next to you helping you
through this hard time, I'm not sure you
can do it alone, I did see a theraist and
they help me some to learn what the true
problem was and to try and love myself,
but my family with the biggest support for
me. I hope i help in any way
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aquachickola
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Joined: 06 Mar 2008 Posts: 15 Location: , FL USA
Posted: 05-29-08 22:16pm
i hit myself too, and I bang my head
against the walls until i get goose eggs.
it's like the rage just comes out and has
to go somewhere... anywhere.
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spongebob23
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Joined: 04 Jun 2008 Posts: 27 Location: , Uk
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Posted: 06-04-08 14:46pm
When i was younger i used to hit myself
aswel..weather it was bangin my head
against a wall or randumly punch myself so
i know how some people feel and im here to
listen x
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shoeholic
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im trying Posted: 06-06-08 13:08pm
thanks.. i really appreciate it..
i am trying to control these urges.. still
struggling..
whenever i get mad, i try very2 hard to
not hurt myself and just take a deep
breath and relax. its hard, to be honest
but at least i think twice about doing it.
thanx for the support
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