I am married for 7 years I love my husband till today he left his parents for me and came to bangalore because they were against marriage, we started our life in a very poor financial condition survived the credits and debts we had accumulated for years though in the meantime I was not working for sometime and also he did not have a job. He started his business 5 years back and failed miserably, now he is jobless for about 8 months. I know that he is having a tough time now and I am working and financialy and emotionally supporting him now. I am depressed and struggling to survive alone I also feel bad we dont have a child, my mom in law keeps taunting me for that and my husband keeps quite we end up having fights because I expect him to explain the situation to his mom I have also explained to her several times. Recently during my sisters marriage my in laws had come and created a big scene my sister and my parents are upset about my husbands behavior and my in laws behavior. Now my husband mentions several times during fights that he does not have a future with me and he would find a job else where apart from his home town, he frequently visits his parents and I have heard and seen his mom brain washing his mind to leave me, but he pretends that she is trying to appreciate me for my efforts and advices both to be together which I believe that she manipulative.He leaves me alone visiting them with no job taking me for granted that I will pay the bills. I have tried all methods telling him that everything will be fine, though he can find a job here he is not trying he wants to run away from the situation and tells me that he will re locate becau he is not getting a job here I cant leave this location because I have a job here and cant stay with out him.I have problems with my husband
1. Not being financially or emotionally take care of me and wants to run away from the situation saying I am not getting a job here
2. I feel I am the only one struggling to keep up this relationship and I am sick and tired of he visiting his parents (I give him money to go after lots of arguments helplessly)
3. I feel bad that I dont have a child even after 7 yrs and i am 32 already
4.I am tired of my mother in law brain washing my husbands brain for everything and he keeps listening to her
5. Father in law was drunk and created a scene in my sisters marriage because of which she and her new husband/ in laws were upset. I am nt able to show my face to them now
6. I feel lonely keep crying whole night fighting for hours and husband does not even bother
7. Many times I have asked him to leave the house and he leaves but i call him back because i cant live without him i feel lonely and feel like committing suicide
8. We talked about divorce several times but both are not willing to the next step
9. Time is running out and I feel my husband is not capable of financially, emotionally supportive, we just fake to be happy with each other everyday
10. I feel he has changed initially he wanted to be married to me and left his parents now he wants his parents and not me he keeps forcing me to talk to them visit them when I do visit i get tortured there
I have no control over this situation now and i am in the state of committing suicide but i think of my old parents and some how try not to do that. I love my husband so much that i cant leave him or live with out him PLEASE HELP
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