Yes, depression can be worse than insomnia but I'm not feeling depressed, just horrible from not sleeping right. Are you depressed? Is that why you got up at 4am?

super depressed.. and that's why I fell asleep at 8pm- 4am, then slept some more from 6:30-8am. I just want to sleep...mainly so I don't have to think about how hurt I am right now. I also feel like sh*t cause the boy I love(d) doesn't love me anymore, didn't want to be in a relationship with me and left me while pregnant with twins. I am having a hard time seeing the light, I can't focus on the positives like my daughter and unborn babies. I am just so angry with him and mad at myself for not being a better girlfriend, mom, daughter...etc.
Sorry, I am such a downer.

I understand. That's tough to deal with and it's only natural that you would be feeling depressed. I think I spoke to you about it in your other forum. I'm here if you want to talk.

Ok, so I finally had a good night sleep last night. I took 3 Xanax. A little more than I'm supposed to take but hey I felt so much better today until I went for my mammo...that's another story. Anyway, my mind was much less cloudy with the Xanax. I'm going to try the same tonight until I can get my clock working properly.