Well...my life for the most part is good. I got a wonderful boyfriend, friends, a good family and all. But, its always between the lines that get me down. This morning after talking to my mom on the phone, I just started crying. My mom got me mad, and this morning I laid in bed and cried, I havent cried that hard in a long time. I've dealt with depression back in high school, so bad to where I was hurting my self physically. That has stopped as long as some other things, but the depression isn't gone all the way. I need help, I need to get out of this hole. I have stress, who doesnt?. But, the depression is causeing me to drink a little more, smoke cigaretts more, and the one thing I don't want to happen is to let this ruin things between my boyfriend and I. About 4-6 weeks ago, I came close to ending my life, I wanted to end my life so bad before I meet my boyfriend. If any one can help me, please do so.