I cant eat, I cant drink, I cant sleep and when I do sleep I dont want to wake up. My heart is breaking...one minute I feel stronger and the next weak. My partner of 9 years became distant and treated me badly for a month between april/may, i knew something was wrong and by the end of may I had found out that he had slept with a girl from his work.Im only 24 and he is only 25 but we have been through alot together and I really do love him to bits. I also found loads of messages he had sent her and his phone bill was over £100 due to text messages he sent her.Ive never felt more low.I feel alone, used, ashamed and hurt.He sent her messages saying he was breaking up with me and that he had feelings for her.She said she was getting back with her boyfriend.I wasnt supposed to find out, but my detective work helped and I did. he said he loved me and wanted to work it out.i spent two weeks with my sister...in a daze....crying.
I recieved phone calls from him that were nasty and he seemed to have no remorse.he wanted to know what was happening with our flat e.t.c.after two weeks i came home, he stayed a few nights on the couch after being out..prob with her.I found pictures of her and his other friends on his phone and he still said he hadnt seen her.he said he wanted a second chance and to work things out.he hugged me, kissed me and then hugged me all night.told me he loved me and was sorry.then we had sex and fell asleep together.in the morning we didnt really speak and he got up and got dressed.he said he did want to try and work things out.ive not heard much over the past few days and he had addmitted his head is very mixed up.im so confused,..i cant eat or sleep, im boerd, im a mess and i feel as though im going insane....i need help and i feel so alone.....i dont know what to do.