having a psychosis ?

i've been called things in the streets, but that is because of how i look. they don't know anything about me. and with the anorexic thing, it's like the number 666. if it wasn't a renowned number you would never notice it. but when you know it's the number of the beast you notice it. you probably never noticed things about anorexia until you started thinking about it.

I have also had similar thoughts about thing happening because I was thinking about something. Like I needed to go shopping and needed margerine, so whenever I went to the shops to buy some it was always on buy one get one free. I thought cool they're reading my mind and giving me special offers.

The voices that I hear can also read my mind, some are ok and you can communicate with the through some sort of telepathic matrix. While others try to say that hearing my thoughts is controling their minds/action and try and blame me for the things that they are doing. That's why they're trying to kill my family, as they have said. They do try to hide/change their voices so that I can't tell who they are, unless they are like me. I have spoken and heard my own sisters voice coming from my mouth, I don't know how they change people around.

As for the 666 thing, each of my three names consist of 6 letters, so I thought I was the antichrist or something evil.

One thing I can say is don't let them get to you, it's not your fault and don't commit suicide, it's not the way to go.

I would definately go to your local doctor and seek some medical advice, you never know he may be able to help. Write down what you need to say and use the notes in your meeting, even let him have them if you can't get everything across.

hey there...the same thing happened to me im greek the things i had in my mind were presented on the TV and were told by strangers and stuff...dude go see a doctor...u are 100% having a psychosis or paranoid schizophrenia or how its called...i was diagnosed schizophrenic and im still taking drugs cos of hallucinations although i dont think ppl are aftert me....i also thought ppl wanted me dead and stuff i thought that conspiracies were made on me..sorry for the bad use of english---john. this happened before 1 year and 2 weeks or so....poor you....we are not lucky mate...but it happens....be strong and face it..go see a doctor before u totally get mad like me...or commit suicide ..like me. if u wanna learn more message me.... s***t happens. be strong. the doctor said ill be totally ok in a couple of months..had a meeting with him yesterday and he told me that i am allowed not to use the one out of two drugs i was taking--my english sucks....message me if u wanna learn more...i had a psychosis like you then it leaded to schizo cos i had visual hallucinations

Hey,I`m having almost the same problem as you,except that I`m thinking that nothing is real and I`m experimented on by scientists.I can`t help myself,but I wish I could help you.First of,your life is not a set up.If it was it would be all over now or we would have killed you by now if we wanted you dead.It doesn`t really matter do you believe me or not,because you have to believe in yourself.Maybe you secretly want your life to be a set up,but you haven`t realized it yet?Look deeper.
Also,about the anorexia thing-when I had bulimia the internet and new and tv were clouded with topics about anorexia,bulimia and girls around my age dying from it.If then I was in my current way of thinking,I would probably think it is strange too.But if you really have psychosis,then the first rule is not to trust what you think.When you are not interested in something,you just don`t pay attention,while if you are almost obsessed with it it appears everywhere,but it is just because you are paying attention then.
And people laugh at many others,it is maybe just because you are more sensitive,no one is reading your mind.they may be all in your mind as you suspect so go see a doctor.
And don`t hurt yourself no matter what happens.

I also thought the same thing about scientists experimenting on me. And I didnt even say that I thought people were all in my head, just a simulationCoincidence? lol.

More suspicions and stuff..


When I was in high school somebody said near me "So and So told me everybody who he masterbates over in school" and then glanced at me and laughed. (See my thoughts?)

Also in high school I got puched. Some girl knew about it, and didnt even know any of the people involved. She knew something else that she shouldnt have aswell.

One of my "Friends" - actor? simulated bot? lol? - told me that he never laughs when he's on his own incase somebody is wacthing him. At the time I only laughed in public aswell, because I couldnt be arsed to make the effort by myself lol. Abit suspicous?

When I had this phase where I thought I was gay (I'm not) - this same friend touched my arse (Testing me for a reaction?) started chatting about how he "Loves" me in a joke kind of way. And on a different day I looked after his house for him and he said he left a picture of his dick in one of the folders in his computer and showed me which one and everything like they were testing me to see if I would look.

I thought recentley that I was in hell, like hitler or something. i switched on to this christian raido a few days later and this guy says "Hell is real. Hitler will pay for what he has done. I dont mean hell as in fire. but there is a hell, and you face total annalation.

People laugh at me in the street like i said they also stared at me and spat next to me on the floor. i thought it was because people thought i was a seriel killer due to other "delusions" and i went to this nurse about it. And I noticed when I said "If people left me alone, then my mental health would be fine" and "i wanna run away to a town where nobody knows me" she quickly glanced away from me, this happened with two other mental health workers. I dont know if they did this so they could eventually cast doubt into my mind to get me like i am now, or they genuinely felt bad because I was being watched (doubt it).

Also, when I took an internet in schizophrenia when I was like 13 or 14 my brothers best friend happened to be dignosed with it.

Come on, what the heck is happening?

This is verry similair what i had VERRY similiar.
Like if I think somthing and then people talk about that, or that the tv atacked me for somthing were I feel guilty for.
After a time I didn't give a beep about it anymore, but It still happens its wierd. But it is really not true, I think nobody want to read my mind because they wouldnt follow it anyway

Hi there. I was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis about 6 yrs ago. I have since recovered though. You are having a psychotic episode and you need to go get help. Tell your family about what is going on or admit yourself to the emergency dept as this is serious and you need medical attention...
I've been there, thought the world was out to get me but THEY WEREN"T, thought that people were talking about me BUT THEY ARE NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU. Nobody can read your mind. it's IMPOSSIBLE! Once you get some medication you'll start to feel better real quick. Do you believe in a god? I used to pray and meditate. just lie on your bed and imagine a white light. Then imagine that this white is going right through you whole body. Feel it in your fingers right down to your toes. If someone has made you unhappy on a particular day just imaging them standing on a stage. One by one look at them and shine this white light on them and say : YOUR WORDS AND ACTIONs CANNOT TOUCH ME.
I can't remember if there was more to it but you can google WHITE LIGHT MEDITATION and some variations should come up. Try it.
Please go and get some help..

Harmony1 xo

I know exactly what you mean! I always feel like pople can read my mind, like they know everything about me. A symptom I have is when people cough I think it has something to do with me, like I digust them because them know everything about my selfish, conceited, stuck up ways. I was walking down the street and a girl said "I like checking out other girl" and I was like she talking about me! And I swear she is. Have you ever been picked on? I think half the reason I think this way is because I was bullied a lot when I was younger and now I've just gone a little crazy. With the TV its the same thing only I notice right after I think a certain word, someone on the tv will say that exact same word. What I think is that this is how the world is, it's werid but this is how the world is because it's evil. The only difference is when you have psychosis, or what the world entiles as psychosis, all these things become more obvious to you. I have no feelings and only anxiety. And when you lose your feelings, like stoning your heart you go crazy, and your mind is completely alone wihtout compassion or love. So you notice everything that's real but without the love so it just seems wosrt than it really is. Sure you can see evil with a heart, but you see it in a differnt light. I don't care about anything anymore, and I get angry a lot at other poeple. I was diagosed with pyschosis, but I've been fighting it the whole way, thinking I don't have pyschosis because evrything is not a delusion it's really happening this way. If pyshcosis is being out of reality I must not have it, because I feel like in touch with reality in a whole other way! Ever since I started taking this medication it's like I hear my own voice in my head but not in the right way, just loud and like all most like someone is putting thoughts into my head. I don't know what else to say, but I feel really stuck and can't believe I let myself get this way. I honestly believe pyschosis isn't real. I believe it's not the brain that's affected but the heart. And tat's why doctors can't figure out the brain because it has everything to do with the heart. Because your heart holds all the knowlegde not your head. Do you feel like you've lost your heart like me? O do your have feelings?

I have the opposite problem to anorexia - I'm a really big girl and I used to think people were laughing at me all the time too. I used to cry as well. Then someone special told me that it doesn't matter what other people think and I came to realise that other people were not laughing at me, they were laughing amongst themselves. It's the "paranoid" part of paranoid schizophrenia. Please - like others have said - at least those of us here - we want want you to get some help. The medication makes it all stop. I know. It does it for me. You are having a psychosis.

First of all, suicide is terrible. You really just drag your problems with you into the next life, and then what do you do?Anyway, you sound upset, but I think the "mind-reading" thing can easily be explained. For example, I drive a Mercedez Benz sometimes, and older one. When I drive it, I notice a lot more Benzs on the road. But, when I drive my dad's Subaru, or my friend's Neon, I see more of those. There are still all the same cars on the road, but I am noticing the ones alike to mine. It can be explained neurotically too. Your brain groups certain things with things it can be associated with, i.e. it creates your vocabulary by grouping words either by first letter or what they rhyme with, like berry and very, or large and long. It will group images the same way. If I ask you to think of your childhood house, you'll think of the house you grew up in, and then whatever images that chain along with it, like a tire swing in the back, and then how you fell off it when you were six, and how you aren't a big fan of tire swings now. See, it all goes together. So, back to your original thought of how you think people are reading your mind, they're really not, your brain is just bringing to light the things you were thinking of, kind of like a built-in reminder.Now, you are probably just a little jittery from your diet. Perhaps, if you drink coffee in the morning, lay off it for about a week, and see how that goes? Or perhaps there is a lot of sugar in your diet. Just try not eating foods that will affect your energy level greatly.I have been laughed at in the street before too, or at least, that is how it appeared to me. But also, upon further inspection, I would find something wrong with my clothes or something ridiculous as such.You aren't crazy, like these people accuse. You're just having a bit of a mental break down. Is there anything keeping you unusually stressed, or do you feel pressured by co-workers?I may have to point out, you asked if you are crazy, which means you are seeing something abnormal in your behavior, which most crazy people do not pick up. They find themselves the completely sane ones, and everyone else peculiar. You're fine, you just need to step back and take a breath.

I've had a couple episodes over the last week-- they only lasted 5-10 minutes, but it was scary-- Like all of a sudden all the people around me were talking in code-- about me-- testing me- to see if I could figure it out. These were co-workers and I knew that I was having some kind of panic/psycbotic episode, but I was scared and scared of everyone.

I have only had this happen about 15 years ago, after I had a bad go-around with crystal meth. Back then those episodes happened off and on everyday-- and that was after I stopped using!!

Well, it's starting to happen again and I am not on drugs. I wonder if it's stress. I've gone through some trauma lately. Could it PTSD? I'm scared. I don't want to go insane.

Molly

A lot of ya'll's experiences remind me of mine. I believed the government was using advanced technology to both read my thoughts, and broadcast their voices into my head. I also thought my television was receiving a special signal and that the conspirators were communicating with me through the TV set. A lot of hallucinations accompanied these delusions and it was all pretty rough until the medications starting working.

To the original poster, your experiences so far sound like classic delusions and paranoia, and you should seek professional assistance immediately. You don't want to be like that longer then you have to.

The first paragraph you wrote pretty much describes what I experienced when I had psychosis. I thought everyone could read my mind and I was embarrassed for thinking the things I did. When I watched tv or read a book it felt like everything I saw was related to me somehow. Everything seemed connected. Everywhere I went I thought people were talking about me or out to get me in some way. Eventually I went to the hospital and the doctors there told me it was psychosis. I didn't believe them and thought they were all out to get me and trying to kill me. Eventually after being medicated for a few weeks I began to realize that these things I had been thinking weren't real. There are treatments that can help you, talk to a doctor right away.

tell your doctor as soon as you can, the world is very basic and simple, we are all humans not part or an experiment. You cant think through life like " oh i''m really hungry" and you see a sign for a restaurant. The restaurant was there before you made that thought, same with the commercials you saw for anorexia, they were paid to air before you even encountered anorexia. I''m sorry my friend, but it sounds like you have been developing paranoid schizophrenia, you may not think it, but the first part affected by the disease is the part of your brain that senses something is wrong. Are you hallucinating? This sounds like a very powerful delusion. Seek help from a doctor immediately. I started 8 months ago feeling as if someone was inserting thoughts into my head, thoughts that were mean and negative, toward the ones i love and care about, i want them to stop, but they don''t. My doctor is doing test to confirm what he believes is psychosis, or at least its beginning stage. Does anyone in your family have it? 1/100 chance of any given person developing schizophrenia. good luck buddy, your not alone. seek help asap.

I relate so much.. Im so thankful you are writing this stuff online, im not alone with this anymore;__;
I have alot of clairvoyant experiences (been talking about this with therapist, she's the one who came up with the "well have you thought it could be possible to be a bit clairvoyant? your so sensitive to everything.) and you mix that up with PARANOIA and racing thoughts and the habit to make up conspiracy theories when stressed. I had the trumanshow- thing too!! It changed into: "these people are after me and they are stalking me somehow" AND " everybody knows what im thinking about" and it's so horrible when it gets too real.. I want to get rid of this paranoia.......